money vs. happiness

Wow. I'm kinda suprised they didn't shut my site down because of my long period of inactivity. Although sadly I dont think anyone really missed me. It has been a while since my last blog yet somehow there is not a whole lot to catch you up on really. I have been working like a dog...in the last week alone I think I had around 85 something hours...in one week! Yikes...I have decided that enough is enough and I will probably be quitting soon. It's not that the work is too hard or anything its just that I dont want to be suffocated with all this time dedicated to work. I need to feel a little more free in a way. The work really only lasts another month and I guess I would be fine if I stuck it through but in the end deep down inside I would just rather not. I have noticed a change in my life from when I started, its like I'm a working robot...like I'm not really living but just working. Like my priorities are upside down. True, the money is really wonderful, probably better than anything I will make in the near future but ironically to me the extra money doesn't make up for the other moments in life that I've been missing. Even though I know I probably haven't really missed out on a lot its just that I guess I like my free time way more than I ever thought I did even if I'm not doing anything special...And I didn't particularly love the job that much for the most part. There were quite a few memorable moments though.

It has been an experience though and its not something I regret at all. I love new experiences and I will basically try anything just to learn what its like. I have learned quit a bit about building a road...its not nearly as easy as it sounds or looks. I have been taught what true hard work is like. And I have also learned that if I can help it I would not want to have a job that consumed my life hour after hour day after day week by week.

Its a hard balance to find in life I guess. Everyone needs money and everyone would want more of it. Some are willing to sacrifice more than others to get more of it. Most people who work less earn less and those that work the most usually earn the most but everyone has their limits of what too much is. In the same context I have heard that most of the time the truly happy ones are the ones that work less and I would believe that to be true. You only really need as much money as you need to survive and the rest of your happiness will come not from extra money but from all those small amazing moments you experience along the way of life.