1/4th of a mid-life crisis

Hello dear blog readers of the universe

Well I am officially 20 years old now! It doesn't feel any different than 19 but it is a bit depressing to think that I am now halfway to 40 which means I'm halfway to being over the hill which means I'm just a 4th of the way to 80 and a 5th of a way to 100 :S *Sigh* that is depressing. Life does kindof go by pretty fast sometimes and it's true that you never really get any younger. Not that growing older is bad and I guess I'm not really old yet anyways so I dont know what I'm talking about maybe I'm going through a mid life crisis or should I say a 1/4th of a mid life crisis.

Sometimes I wish I lived in old biblical times where people regularly lived to like 823 years old and THEN they died of old age lol. But then I would probably be walking around in the wilderness and herding sheep for that long as well. Its true that the 3 people that I'm probably most jealous of ever are the 3 Nephites that were granted the ability to live until the end of the earth as well as eternal life. I think that would be really amazing. I often try to come up with ideas of where they are or who they are of if anyone has seen them lately lol. Do you think they've ever been through Heber? That would be pretty cool to know haha. I know the things I think about are kinda weird but I have a curious mind.

So I purposely didn't write about my birthday beforehand on here and I just sort of didn't tell anyone anyways because its just never been a big deal and I've just learned that no one really cares that much anyways.

Well I had 3 days off from work for my birthday which was kindof pointless because I did mostly nothing. It was nice that I didn't have to drive to work in the crazy snow storm or else I might not be living to write this pointless blog. It's nice to have work off but sometimes I guess I would just rather work because it gives me something to do and keeps me preoccupied and life is the best when your busy. (For the most part) Well I am applying at UVSC right now and I think I should get accepted but thats just what I think lol. If I do then I will probably try and find some way to move down there or maybe my financial aid can cover the cost of some type of school housing which would be nice so I dont have to focus as much on trying to earn money while trying to go to school. So I dont know but I'm looking forward to it because it will be a change, a good change and it will keep me busy and I'll feel like I'm accomplishing things.

Well I have thought of a new list to include and its a pretty rad list and of course it has to do with music :)

Whats better than a good song? A good video to go along with it!

My Top Ten Music Videos - at the moment

10. Beck- E Pro
I had to put this one on the list just because its so bizarre and abstract but its funny and maybe if you think really hard there is a lesson to be learned from it or maybe Beck was just on drugs. Either way its entertaining.

Favorite scene: When he starts running away from the weird monster thing haha he just looks retarded.

9. Eve 6-Inside Out
Sometimes I feel like the only place its raining is right above me and everyone is just staring at me from the outside.

Favorite scene: When he yells at the girl and she blows away

8. Barenaked Ladies- Pinch Me
This is just an amusing video. It kind of reminds me of when I used to work in restraunts. Sometimes life feels like your just going through the motions and everything is the same. A bit like how a fast food place can symbolize societies demand for things as fast as possible because everyone is in a hurry they dont have time to stop and wait and because of this they get crappy food that makes them fat. In between all the hurry and worry sometimes you need to stop and be original and create your own joy and just have fun. I really like the enthusiastic facial expressions and thumbs ups haha.

Favorite scene: When he falls into a huge pile of hamburger buns, which for some reason sounds really fun

7. Goo Goo Dolls- Broadway
Another video that speaks to the nature of society. All of these hard working blue collar men just want to be able to have a chance to be someone different and someone famous but it turns out being that new person is not who you really are and its not always that great.

Favorite scene: When the band sits down to eat lunch...or when the construction workers are dancing- see 2:51-2:57

6. Barenaked Ladies- If I Had A Million Dollars
I just like that this is actually not a video at all but a slideshow that just makes me laugh for no particular reason. "If I had a million dollars we wouldn't have to eat Kraft dinner, of course we would we'd just eat more and buy really expensive ketchups thats right all the fanciest dijon ketchups!" haha

Favorite scene: When the show the "nice reliable car"

5. Weezer- Island in the Sun
It would have been pretty fun to shoot this video with them. How could you not love being around all the baby animals?

Favorite scene: Any with the monkey in it

4. Jet-Shine On
I always like it when there are historical clips from the past. This song is a mixture of good things and bad things happening at once and in the end the bad things cannot prevail.

Favorite scene: The man and the tanks at Tiananmen Square

3. Lifehouse- From Where You Are
This video reminds me of all the good road trips and car rides I've had. It's just a nice video and a nice song with good memories.

Favorite scene: Probably the mustang or when the kids are rocking out and then the next minute they're dead asleep because thats pretty much how we live sometimes

2. Coldplay- Yellow
I can't even really explain to you why I like this music video because basically its the simplest video ever but its a really simple song and you can see the emotion on his face as he sings it and a song with emotion attatched to it is amazing and somehow its just wonderful.

Favorite scene: umm well its all sorta the same scene lol

1. Coldplay- The Scientist
It's a great video because its all filmed backwards and it's much more powerful backwards than it would be forwards which is odd. Haven't you ever wanted to go back and re-do something that occured to you or something that you caused to happen to someone else? Have you ever thought about how your life would have played out if you did change course, would things be different for you now if you changed something before, and if you knew how things would have changed would you have really changed them in the first place?

Favorite scene: when he is in the forest at night and the leaves are floating up

Wow that was a fantastically long blog I have a bad habit of making them huge. I apologize lol. Well I think that is enough for now :)