a change of plans

So today in church something really weird happened. I was just sitting there thinking by myself like normal being perfectly reverant of course like I always am. When all of a sudden out of the blue this message just came across me that I really needed to go on a mission. I wasn't even thinking about a mission I'm not sure where it came from but it kept hitting me and it wasn't even giving me a choice it was like "no you have to." I don't really know how to describe it. I mean I've had impressions that I should go on a mission before just like any other kid my age has, but this time it was so real and so undeniable that there was just no question about it. I've never felt something that was so real and tangible and so good when it comes to a feeling or impression. It was bizzare...but in a good way :)

So after all the church meetings I waited around for about an hour and a half to see the bishop and I just told him that I needed to go on a mission as soon as possible and he said that just made his day. Which made me happy. I pretty much feel like im postponing everything. I already made plans to go to college for the summer, i'm going to have to get rid of my car that I just bought...etc..and I was like "bishop, I have already made plans to go to college in July and everything" and he said something that made me think a little deeper and he said "a mission is an education too. It's an education of the Lord and it's the most important education that you will recieve." and the truth of that really hit me. And I really decided that there is nothing more important that I could be doing at this time. Spending two years serving the Lord and my church is more important than college right now, its more important than my car or any other worldly thing that I possess right now.

I feel a little embarassed that I just haven't really realized these things until now. I think I take the long road with everything in my life I dont really know why. But when I do find out what I really want to do I always do it, so there's really no stopping me. Maybe I am better off because of it. It's like I have to explore every option before I go with the one I should have gone with in the first place. I mean I could be like halfway done with a mission by now but even though I should have gone then, there must still be a very good reason for me to go now and I believe there is, and I really can't wait. Even though I said I was thoroughly excited to go to college I'm way beyond that kind of excited to start a mission.