decisions decisions

"Don't let your fear of the unknown prevent your vision of the future."

Hello people. Sorry I have not been much of a blogger lately my world has been chaotic and busy and it doesn't leave me in a very good blogging mood or I just don't have time.

Life is alright though I'm thoroughly excited about finally going to college and I'm happy that I've picked something that I REALLY want to do. I swear I must have written twenty essays for scholarships by now but you know what? I actually kindof enjoy it which is a good thing I think its exciting. Not that I'm going to win or anything but hey I'm glad I try. So getting accepted was one thing...now I just have to do it! Haha thats always the hard part..ask me how its going four years from now :)

I have a bit of a decision to make and I really have no idea which one I should go with. I need to decide if I want to stay in Heber and take all my classes at the Wasatch campus or if I want to finally get out and experience the "college life." I feel like I need to get out of Heber though, don't get me wrong I actually love Heber but sometimes there's just not enough here to keep you around. There just doesn't seem to be much else for me to explore here. It would be so much more thrilling to get out and live and be my own person.
But if I stay and take classes in Heber it will save me so much money in the long run and I have two decent jobs that have hours that can work with my school schedule. But I just most likely won't have the great experiences that comes with going out on your own like meeting new people and such. I feel like that is important to me. bah I dont really know.

Everything I've done I've had to do myself and leaving Heber is a big thing to do on your own especially when you hardly have much of a family to fall back on should things go wrong...It makes me feel so vulnerable but I guess sometimes you just have to do things and it will work...but what if it backfires? I would have nowhere to turn. I would be screwed..hmmm..decisions decisions how are you ever supposed to tell which one to make?

Thats all I guess.