blog no. 50

Well hello and good morning. Buenos dias. goedemorgen. bonjour. guten Morgen.

Yes it is very early in the morning and I just wanted to say good morning you know or is there a certain name for this time of day, like the twilight zone or something? Anyways...

Yep...I am at work.
-with nothing to do
-and i'm insanely bored
-I want to start randomly texting people
-but that would be quite rude of me
-because everyone in america is asleep except for me
- and the security guard -wait he's asleep too....

Work has been going pretty good though.
-And I dont mind the graveyard shift that much so far
-I have met most of the people they seem pretty great
-They all seem to be in their late 20's or 30's kinda makes me feel too young
-Especially for the night auditor position which is actually a very important job...
-It is a very good working environment and thats a good thing
-I like working with computers and thats what we do during the graveyard shift.
-Sometimes drunk people wander in through the doors at peculiar times.


So this is my 5oth blog yay!.
-I should throw a party
-with the security guard....
-There will be a disco ball and dancing
-And a blog-a-thon with food
-we will play games and sing
-and take over the pool area
-maybe i should wake him up first though...
-I hope no one comes to rob me he doesn't look very protective
-But then I could invite the robber to the party
-And maybe he/she would have a change of heart
-And realize that robbing is not the right way to make a living
-And I could potentially influence this robbers life for the better
-wow...i dont know how I started talking about that lol

I wonder if I will ever have a 50th wedding anniversary?
-I think that would be pretty cool
-it would definitely deserve a very big cake
-and a lot of dedication to my wife
-and vice versa

I dont really know what I'm talking about.
-I'm kinda tired
- and bored
-as you can probably see
-I chugged about 3 red bulls just barely
-It gave me wings

When I get this bored my mind starts thinking about bizarre things.
-Usually about life and its complexities (spelling?)
-About fate and chance, decisions and consequences
-Moments of inspiration and points of change
-Mans inherit ability to do good as well as bad
-Sounds dorky but its interesting to me but then I over analyze everything
-And then it gives me a headache and its no fun

I think a few poems are going to come from these nights...
-So be prepared
-Thats the boy scout motto
-maybe a few...shall I say...weird blogs too? I dunno just a guess...

Anyways...

Ummmmm.
-did anyone read that anyways
-haha
:)

:)

Guess what? I just got a phone call from the Marriot saying that I was hired for their night auditor position yes! I had a feeling I would get hired because my job interview went pretty well. So my rather boring unemployment time is about to come to an end and I'm pretty excited to be going back to work. Just because it gives me something to do I guess. Plus I know I will be making money and I definitely need to start making money again and hopefully I can save up as much as I had when I was working construction but thats really hard to do since construction paid a lot more. But I found out it is really nice when you actually have money saved up. My job as a night auditor means I will be working graveyard shifts so pretty much all throughout the night but that might actually be a good thing because that means I have like the whole day off of course I will probably sleep for a lot of the day though...It will be interesting at least. I dont really know a lot about the job description but she said I manage the front desk for the whole night and that it's just basically me and the security guard managing the whole front of the building haha which is laughable and a little intimidating but she told me it was a good job to have if I was looking to gain leadership and management experience which is definitely a plus.

So the rest of this day is probably going to be pretty boring and uneventful. I had to take my car into the shop again...this is about the 4th or 5th time in the past couple of months. My engine keeps stalling on me and its kinda scary especially if it happens in the middle of an intersection or on the highway....hopefully they will fix it this time because I'm going to need it to be good to drive to Park City for work..

I just recently learned that Tyler had quit the construction job to and that he was in the process of moving to Orem. I have spent the last weekend helping him move and he is successfully moved down there I guess. I must admit it is pretty weird not having him around in Heber. I've guess I've gotten used to it these past 5 years and it was a bit of a shock to have him just say one day "i'm moving to orem." I always thought that when we graduated high school me and Dylon and Tyler were going to move out together and go to school and be as close as we were in high school but I guess things get changed and plans get reworked and moments get spoiled and oppurtunities may be wasted. I dont really know I'm happy for him though and he seems to be happy and so maybe its just time to start working on our own lives.

Other than that things have been going pretty smooth in my life for now. I'm glad my job hunt is over with -at least I believe so. I'm relieved that I will start earning money again. I'm definitely happy to be doing something more productive than what I have been doing lately. I feel more optimistic about the future than I have in a while...I dont know why but I do..Things with Hannah are going good and that makes me happy...my dog is still as loveable as ever...My grandma is still the best ever...I make really good pinneaple upside down cake-or shall I say pinneaple right side up cake cuz I never turned it upside down...I still enjoy the simple things in life more than anything...i still haven't gotten a traffic violation yet....and tomorrow is always a new day right?

Oh bloggy

Well I have become convinced that it is much harder to find a good job than I thought it was going to be. So far I have applied at 4 places and attempted to apply at another 2 but they weren't hiring...I have yet to recieve any feedback from the 4 places I have applied and I dont know whether I should call them and ask if they have reviewd my aplication or not? Me and dylon were planning on getting a job together but he seems unconcerned about the whole deal so I dont know. I am really kinda getting bored of having nothing to do all day as well. As much as I hate to admit it, it is not so much fun as it is boring to not have a job lol. Maybe if my other friends didn't have jobs to and I didn't have bills to pay then of course it would be grand. I have been hanging out with Hannah a bit and that has been great. I have decided shes completely awesome and even though she says shes boring she really isn't. She also is really ticklish....and faintly smells of chlorine but I like it :)

Anyways thats about it for now I guess, goodbye bloggy

Friendships

"You should investigate new possibilities with your friends"
-Fortune Cookie from Canton City

So basically this week has been pretty great. Basically everything is looking a little better since I quit my construction job. I feel a bit more free and relaxed, I dont feel like im being pressured into any situation and things just seem to work better that way. Me and Dylon have been hanging out a lot more now and we are hoping to get a job together somewhere. I think I have been over at his house more than I have even been at mine. It has been good for us to spend more time together. Generally since he has been back from Orem we have become a lot closer than we were before. And hopefully I can become closer in all of my friendships that I have. That is a good goal to have I think! Because I am a huge believer in friendships and every single person in the world has to have at least one awesome friend I cant imagine how it is possible to not. Sometimes it feels like we are all in a race with life and everyone is in such a rush to get from point A to point B that we may never even take time to say hi or acknowledge each other. The funny thing is, we all think we will be better if we do everything ourselves but that is usually the exact opposite of the truth. Can you imagine what the world would be like if every person decided to give each other a hand and if every person decided to put even just a little extra effort into every thing? We are all given friends for a reason and it's kind of amazing how much people neglect things that are given to them not just friends but everything. It's kind of sad usually it takes a big dramatic event to put things back into perspective.
And I think I have made a new friend just recently which is awesome. And she is pretty much awesome too. We have hung out twice now and even though we didn't really plan anything grand to do we still had a lot of fun or at least I did. I think the mark of a great friendship is when you can have just as much fun doing nothing as when you are doing something does that make sense at all?? haha oh well it does to me...Anyways I need to go

goodbye for now
-trav

Guess what?

So guess what? It snowed for the first time today! It was only like 3 snowflakes but that counts right? And its really really cold outside and I dont like it my fingers are retracting into my body because they are too cold to live outside of it...does that make sense? lol Guess what? I have reached a new all time criminal low in my life. I've been put on probation.. :S But not for selling drugs or anything crazy like that just because I speed too much lol. Actually I should say my license has been put on probation that sounds better and for a whole year! I guess I went over my 80 allowance points for traffic violations and so now I have to go a whole year without a violation or else my license gets suspended for a month. I think it would be a minor miracle if I could go a whole year without getting a ticket but I sure hope so...

I dreamt a dream

Well the summer heat is cooling fast. No longer will the days be full of sunshine from sun up until sun down. It makes me sad I love summer a lot. I try and think of what I have accomplished this summer and all that fills my head is work work work. That makes me even more sad. Usually the summer season is full of excitement and anticipation. I guess this is from getting out of grade school so many times for the summer, it was the season that meant we were free. It is the season that provides you with the most to do and it is the one that is most looked forward to.

Soon everything will change colors, the temperature will drop to places it should never reach, everything will slow down and little white things are going to start falling out of the sky and we are all going to say "I wish it were summer already." Although I must say the hot chocolate is much better in the winter than it ever will be in the summer. (S'mores too) Its okay I guess winter isn't all that bad...it just seems a little more boring than the rest of the seasons, like time slows down to an indescernable crawl. Plus it will probably be doubly more boring this year cuz I didn't do much of anything exciting for summer. But it can be quite fun as well, it definitely lets you use your creativeness in trying to come up with things to do when your trapped in your house and there's a freakin snowiccane blowin around outside and you have a car that will probably flip over and slide halfway across main street if you try and switch lanes too fast. Well hopefully I can get a lot more snowboarding and skiing in than I have in the past that would be fun and maybe I will become a specialist at making heat seeking snowballs. Maybe I will build an igloo and skin a whale? Or I could go on a cruise to somewhere with...summer weather??? Well....if there weren't any winters then we wouldn't appreciate the summers near as much huh? Thats the beauty of everything. I guess we will just have to wait and see what it brings.

Oh I have a new poem...

yesterday I dreamt a dream so true
that today I thought everything was new
yesterday I had thought all my dreams had come true
and today I believed all those things I thought I knew

tomorrow I’ll dream a dream just the same
I’ll wake up to things all the same
like a struggling flicker in a dying candle flame
What I dreamt may never have a name

money vs. happiness

Wow. I'm kinda suprised they didn't shut my site down because of my long period of inactivity. Although sadly I dont think anyone really missed me. It has been a while since my last blog yet somehow there is not a whole lot to catch you up on really. I have been working like a dog...in the last week alone I think I had around 85 something hours...in one week! Yikes...I have decided that enough is enough and I will probably be quitting soon. It's not that the work is too hard or anything its just that I dont want to be suffocated with all this time dedicated to work. I need to feel a little more free in a way. The work really only lasts another month and I guess I would be fine if I stuck it through but in the end deep down inside I would just rather not. I have noticed a change in my life from when I started, its like I'm a working robot...like I'm not really living but just working. Like my priorities are upside down. True, the money is really wonderful, probably better than anything I will make in the near future but ironically to me the extra money doesn't make up for the other moments in life that I've been missing. Even though I know I probably haven't really missed out on a lot its just that I guess I like my free time way more than I ever thought I did even if I'm not doing anything special...And I didn't particularly love the job that much for the most part. There were quite a few memorable moments though.

It has been an experience though and its not something I regret at all. I love new experiences and I will basically try anything just to learn what its like. I have learned quit a bit about building a road...its not nearly as easy as it sounds or looks. I have been taught what true hard work is like. And I have also learned that if I can help it I would not want to have a job that consumed my life hour after hour day after day week by week.

Its a hard balance to find in life I guess. Everyone needs money and everyone would want more of it. Some are willing to sacrifice more than others to get more of it. Most people who work less earn less and those that work the most usually earn the most but everyone has their limits of what too much is. In the same context I have heard that most of the time the truly happy ones are the ones that work less and I would believe that to be true. You only really need as much money as you need to survive and the rest of your happiness will come not from extra money but from all those small amazing moments you experience along the way of life.