I am...

So this is a big blog that I have been working on forever. It was originally just a huge paragraph of random run-on sentences but I decided it needed a little organization so I put it into statements. I like it.

I Am.
I am adventerous yet afraid. I am very random to people I dont actually know but very sincere to people I do know. I am able to get along with almost anyone, but not everyone can get along with me. I am generally speaking, an unlucky person but I know that I am really lucky for many things. I am able to restrain myself, but I am prone to many human desires. I am always eating more than I should however I never gain any weight. I am always thinking but I usually have no one to think with. I am not frustrated very easily but when I am everyone can tell. I am passionate about everything that really means something to me.
I Believe.
I believe there is a silver lining in every single thing I just may never know what it is. I believe in my church without a shadow of a doubt even though once I didn't. I believe in the magic of chance and purpose even though I dont know what my purpose is. I believe anyone has the ability to do anything but sometimes I do nothing. I believe in a million things that are hard to prove, you just have to know for yourself.
I Understand.
I understand that even though I think my life is the hardest thing ever, I will always be able to look around and know that someone else has it even harder. I understand the importance of taking a shower everyday but sometimes I dont. I understand the importance of being honest, even when it comes to how often I shower. I understand things better than ever before, yet I know nothing really.
I Have.
I have an expansive mind but I limit my ability to act on my thoughts. I have deep goals, but I never get my priorities straight. I have a passion for music that will always be with me. I have a desire to do good but I always wonder if what I do is good. I have a birth certificate that says I was born.
I Feel.
I feel the world is wide open and free, however I feel confined in my own little place. I feel so free, yet it is hard for me to recognize an oppurtunity when I see one. I feel as if my life goes in cirlces, but thats better than most other shapes. I feel blessed to be where I am today, but I feel like I can be somewhere better tomorrow.
I Dream.
I dream that someday all my hard work will pay off, however I probably will never stop working on something. I dream for the future, but I wish I could re live my past. I dream some pretty weird dreams but they are funny. I dream for the moments that make me smile and the times that make me laugh. I dream of ways to make myself better. Sometimes I dream that I am dreaming in my own dream!
I Can.
I can endure huge amounts of pain without ever showing it to anyone. I can sleep for half a day but I will always feel tired. I can make myself laugh out loud with my own thoughts, I can also make myself cry too easily. I can always look back and be proud of certain things I have done yet there are things I can't be proud of.
I Enjoy.
I enjoy thinking intellectually, yet never seem to be able to talk the way I think. I enjoy the simple stupid things that come with life. I enjoy the stars in the sky and the grass on the ground. I enjoy meeting new people, yet most people think I am anti social. I enjoy road trips but I have hardly ever been on any. I enjoy lots of things that I've never really done a lot of...maybe thats why I enjoy them. I enjoy the relationships I have with the people I know.
I Appreciate.
I appreciate the things I have, but I never know how much until I lose it-and I lose things a lot. I appreciate the air I breath and the water I drink. I appreciate the memories I have, I never feel like I can have enough. I appreciate the people that can make me laugh, and even the people that make me think twice about what I think...or think I thought or thought I thinked...
I Hate.
I hate working so many hours but I enjoy it in a way. I hate it when I do something I'm not supposed to do and I know that I will hate it but I do it anyways. There are lots of things that I hate all while enjoying them. I hate it when the things that can go wrong always do. I hate how unlucky I can be sometimes. I hate the fact that some people are just incapable of caring. But I really dont HATE too many things...
I Love.
I love the thought of change, yet I may never be able to deal with it well. I love the thought of love. I love the fact that every new day can be the start of something even better. I love how intricate everything in the world is but it is still so simple. I love that bees make honey, I wish I could make honey. I love life.
I Think.
I think it would be cool to be a movie actor but I would dislike the lifestyle. I think it would be awesome to eat a whole case of twinkies but it would make me sick. I think I think too much, but the more I think about it the more I can't stop, and the more I think that I think too much just like I thought before. I think ducks are cool but they're not my favorite. I think about the future way more than I think about the present. I think that someday I will become who I want to be.

Well this is another blog that could go on forever. Thats probably about .1% of me. guess I am a lot of things, but I am also not a lot of things. But that is just who I am.