So there is an AYS position open at the Marriott and they just offered me a significant raise if I would work that job with them, in addition to my Loss Prevention and Night Audit jobs. If I took the job that means I would have to give up my other job at Raintree. I decided to accept the raise and stay with Marriott. I think it will be beneficial to me to just work at one place. Even if it is 3 different jobs. Yes, 3 jobs in one hotel.
Man I am going to know this place inside and out by the time Im done. Oh wait, I already do! I might as well just rent out a room and stay here 24/7. Or even better, they should just give me a room to stay in. Its getting kindof ridiculous, I must say. But I need the money more than anything. I hate the fact that money plays such a dominant role in my life-and it shouldn't ever be a number one priority for anyone but if this means being able to afford a mission quicker, then I guess you've got to do what you feel like you have to do.
And if I ever decide to get into hotels after my mission....just imagine what my resume is going to look like. haha.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Friday, April 18, 2008
overwhelmed and frustrated and going insane
So my boss at my second job-Raintree Resorts just got fired. Which was really unexpected and quite a shock for everyone that works here. The company is run by some people in Mexico and they don't really know what it is like down here and I guess they thought he was the problem, which he definitely wasn't. So this leaves me in a very awkward situation because my job was to be his assistant and the only reason I got this job was to help him. He was like the head and the brain of the operation and I was just his arms lol. Now I have no head. I really don't know if there is still a place for me here maybe they will tell me to go to?
Although I may have been happy for about .01 seconds when the thought of only having one job and working a regular 40 hour week came to mind. But this is not a very good situation because I'm really depending on this second job and the secondary income to save up another extra couple thousand dollars for my mission. Basically everything I earn for one job covers all my bills and living expenses that I just naturally have, and everything I earn for this job gets saved. So without this job there is not much saving at all...I want to leave as soon as possible but I still have SO many expenses to cover....
Even though the Bishop has told me that the ward can take care of the rest of my monthly mission expense I still have a goal of saving another $1000-1500 dollars just so I have a good conscience in knowing that I didn't have to burden others at my expense.
I just got done buying a years worth of contacts= $300
(and depending on where I go I may have to buy a whole other years worth)=$300
And lets not forget a pair of glasses for backup=$200
Then comes at least another suit (probably two), two pairs of shoes, socks, ties, shirts..blah blah= appx. $650-700
I still have $300 on my credit card...
Damage from Jeep that needs fixed before I can sell it=$1000
Dentist appointment on the 22nd...= $100 - ?
So basically another $4000 before I can even think of leaving. GAH! Oh man living life is expensive......but all of a sudden putting your "normal life" on pause to leave for two years is even more expensive. Especially when the only place you can get money is from yourself, not your parents or some wealthy uncle or grandparent. I devote 16 hours a day and 20 straight hours of work on the weekends to try and make this happen but its just not happening very well. I'm tired, I never get enough sleep, my emotions are drained like a battery that won't charge anymore. I feel like a hamster running in its wheel, I can work myself into the ground and never have anything to show for it. I hate driving to Park City in the middle of the night. I clock in at the exact same times everyday, I do the exact same things everyday, I eat the same food everyday, no one hardly ever talks to me except my co-workers. I feel overwhelmed and frustrated. I look like a walking zombie. If I close my eyes for more than 10 seconds I'll probably fall asleep. I hardly feel like a part of society. I only interact with like 10 people everyday. I feel like I have no place anymore, like I'm in my own little world that never has an end. One day flows into another that flows into another and pretty soon I have no idea what day it is or what time it is and I don't even care anyways. I think I'm going partially insane. This blog sucks.
-Feeling overwhelmed and frustrated
(I'm going to start ending my blogs like the anonymous people do when they write to those advice columns or whatever)
Although I may have been happy for about .01 seconds when the thought of only having one job and working a regular 40 hour week came to mind. But this is not a very good situation because I'm really depending on this second job and the secondary income to save up another extra couple thousand dollars for my mission. Basically everything I earn for one job covers all my bills and living expenses that I just naturally have, and everything I earn for this job gets saved. So without this job there is not much saving at all...I want to leave as soon as possible but I still have SO many expenses to cover....
Even though the Bishop has told me that the ward can take care of the rest of my monthly mission expense I still have a goal of saving another $1000-1500 dollars just so I have a good conscience in knowing that I didn't have to burden others at my expense.
I just got done buying a years worth of contacts= $300
(and depending on where I go I may have to buy a whole other years worth)=$300
And lets not forget a pair of glasses for backup=$200
Then comes at least another suit (probably two), two pairs of shoes, socks, ties, shirts..blah blah= appx. $650-700
I still have $300 on my credit card...
Damage from Jeep that needs fixed before I can sell it=$1000
Dentist appointment on the 22nd...= $100 - ?
So basically another $4000 before I can even think of leaving. GAH! Oh man living life is expensive......but all of a sudden putting your "normal life" on pause to leave for two years is even more expensive. Especially when the only place you can get money is from yourself, not your parents or some wealthy uncle or grandparent. I devote 16 hours a day and 20 straight hours of work on the weekends to try and make this happen but its just not happening very well. I'm tired, I never get enough sleep, my emotions are drained like a battery that won't charge anymore. I feel like a hamster running in its wheel, I can work myself into the ground and never have anything to show for it. I hate driving to Park City in the middle of the night. I clock in at the exact same times everyday, I do the exact same things everyday, I eat the same food everyday, no one hardly ever talks to me except my co-workers. I feel overwhelmed and frustrated. I look like a walking zombie. If I close my eyes for more than 10 seconds I'll probably fall asleep. I hardly feel like a part of society. I only interact with like 10 people everyday. I feel like I have no place anymore, like I'm in my own little world that never has an end. One day flows into another that flows into another and pretty soon I have no idea what day it is or what time it is and I don't even care anyways. I think I'm going partially insane. This blog sucks.
-Feeling overwhelmed and frustrated
(I'm going to start ending my blogs like the anonymous people do when they write to those advice columns or whatever)
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
an accomplishment
So I've finally actually finished the whole Book of Mormon and it only took me about a month. And it just looks like I used it as my coloring book because I used 5 different pencil colors to mark certain things like good things, bad things, warnings, promises, and instructions. Which took forever but it definitely helps. It's funny because it was actually pretty easy to read it all but I pretty much thought that it was impossible to do before. I guess the big difference was that I actually WANTED to read it and that seemed to make all the difference. Plus somehow I understood it a lot better than I ever have before.
I suppose this works the same way with everything in life. We really only truly accomplish something when we want to. Not when we have to or when we need to...The ability to achieve something must come from within us and it must be built upon self-desire and self motivation.
Now I just can't decide whether I should re-read it again or start on the Bible. Hah.
I suppose this works the same way with everything in life. We really only truly accomplish something when we want to. Not when we have to or when we need to...The ability to achieve something must come from within us and it must be built upon self-desire and self motivation.
Now I just can't decide whether I should re-read it again or start on the Bible. Hah.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
a tale of life with lyrics.
So I decided I would try an experiment and make a story out of various song lyrics. (yeah I'm extremely bored) Here are the rules..
1. Each sentence is a different lyric. (with a few choice commas and "ands and buts" to make the lyrics flow a little better.
2. I didn't use any one song twice
Sounds easy but its actually pretty hard.
I will call this story LIFE. Well its not really a story, just a bunch of good lyrics put together in a way that makes sense.
There's a life inside you. Your life is a song that you sing and the whole wide world is listening. How you receive it, well that’s up to you. Just live right now just be yourself. We may lose and we may win but we will never be here again. Just take time to realize that everything can pass you by. Because It's the heart afraid of dying, that never learns to dance, it's the dream afraid of waking, that never takes the chance. It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live.
And nobody ever seems to remember that life is a game we play. So if your not willing to give it all you got, if your not in it for life let me make it clear so you might be. And when this life makes you wonder what have you got to lose, just go back to the moment of truth. And when it comes it moves so slow kinda like its saying I told you so. No one ever said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard. When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want but not what you need, when you feel so tired that you can't sleep but if you never try then you'll never know. It's not always rainbows and butterflies its compromise, it moves us along. And sometimes you bend sometimes you stand, sometimes you turn your back to the wind. Then on your knees you look up and decide you've had enough, you get mad you get strong, wipe your hands shake it off then you stand. You fell down of course, and then you got back up of course and you started over. And when the stars all look the same don't feel the cold or wind or rain everything will be okay. Because our lives are made in these small hours these little wonders, these twists and turns of fate time falls away. So make the best of this test known as life. Because life's a dance you learn as you go.
And life is more than who we are and life is made up of all that you’re used to. It is the clock upon the wall this is the story of us all. And all you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be. But it's hard to get hold of and hard to let go, always something we look for from the day we were born. So stop turn and take a look around at all the lights and sounds. Because right here right now there is no other place I would rather be. And if we had everything, would we still want to live?
And there’s no time to think about the starting or the end, we’ll find out I’m sure. Though we know that time has wings we're the ones who have to fly. What a dizzy dance, our lives are better left to chance. And it’s a bittersweet symphony this life yeah, and every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end.
1. Each sentence is a different lyric. (with a few choice commas and "ands and buts" to make the lyrics flow a little better.
2. I didn't use any one song twice
Sounds easy but its actually pretty hard.
I will call this story LIFE. Well its not really a story, just a bunch of good lyrics put together in a way that makes sense.
There's a life inside you. Your life is a song that you sing and the whole wide world is listening. How you receive it, well that’s up to you. Just live right now just be yourself. We may lose and we may win but we will never be here again. Just take time to realize that everything can pass you by. Because It's the heart afraid of dying, that never learns to dance, it's the dream afraid of waking, that never takes the chance. It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live.
And nobody ever seems to remember that life is a game we play. So if your not willing to give it all you got, if your not in it for life let me make it clear so you might be. And when this life makes you wonder what have you got to lose, just go back to the moment of truth. And when it comes it moves so slow kinda like its saying I told you so. No one ever said it was easy, no one ever said it would be so hard. When you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want but not what you need, when you feel so tired that you can't sleep but if you never try then you'll never know. It's not always rainbows and butterflies its compromise, it moves us along. And sometimes you bend sometimes you stand, sometimes you turn your back to the wind. Then on your knees you look up and decide you've had enough, you get mad you get strong, wipe your hands shake it off then you stand. You fell down of course, and then you got back up of course and you started over. And when the stars all look the same don't feel the cold or wind or rain everything will be okay. Because our lives are made in these small hours these little wonders, these twists and turns of fate time falls away. So make the best of this test known as life. Because life's a dance you learn as you go.
And life is more than who we are and life is made up of all that you’re used to. It is the clock upon the wall this is the story of us all. And all you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be. But it's hard to get hold of and hard to let go, always something we look for from the day we were born. So stop turn and take a look around at all the lights and sounds. Because right here right now there is no other place I would rather be. And if we had everything, would we still want to live?
And there’s no time to think about the starting or the end, we’ll find out I’m sure. Though we know that time has wings we're the ones who have to fly. What a dizzy dance, our lives are better left to chance. And it’s a bittersweet symphony this life yeah, and every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end.
So I have worked on this forever even though it doesnt look like it, it hasn't turned out as good as imagined but I wanted to capture a sense of perseverance. I wanted to convey an expression that life is not always "rainbows and butterflies." Everyone has a big time in their life where they are pushed to the ground and they have their face rubbed in the sand and there are always those times that require a certain endurance and a certain amount of grit, and will, and just plain old hard work to get through.
My absolute favorite line is "It's the heart afraid of dying, that never learns to dance, it's the dream afraid of waking, that never takes the chance. It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give. And the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live." Yeah. Thats pretty good huh?
I once saw this show on the Discovery Channel(pretty much my favorite channel ever)
It was about these climbers that have climbed Mt. Everest many times and they were talking about how hard it gets towards the end, they talked about how exhausted you become and how dillusional you can get. They talked about how sometimes they want nothing more than to just sit down and take a break or maybe take a nap, but if they did this they knew they would die. The only way to stay alive is to keep going and keep trying. They talked about a guy they knew who just gave up. He was tired and he decided to just sit down for a minute, but even though they tried with all their power to persuade him to keep going he just couldn't do it. He just sat there and died right in front of them. I suppose that although normal life may not be as dramatic, the concept is still the same.
Life throws everyone a whole host of trials and ups and downs and all that really matters is how we deal with them. They are our gigantic mountain that we must summit, they are our deepest valleys that we must descend. They are the things that build you up, just to smash you back to the ground. They are the things that make you white hot, just so that they can hammer you and bend and shape you. They are the things that grind you so that you either become sharp or you break off and become dull. They are the things that we hate to love, but love to hate. They make us who we are and prime us for our next big challenge.
What do we do when we are pushed beyond limits we've never crossed? How do we react when we are brought down so many times that we don't think we could get back up if we were brought down one more time? When life is throwing you so many things you can't even catch them all, and you start to drop things then you start to think how much more, how much longer?...It is in these moments we define ourselves. In these moments we write the definition of what we are truly made of. These are the things that teach us, these are the things that we learn from. They are the things that make us become us.
And yet, even though these things can be the ugly side of life.. somehow ironically, maybe these are the things that make life so beautiful and so fulfilling. There is a certain quality, a certain silver lining through everything in life. For if we never knew these things, we would not be able to comprehend such happiness. We would not feel satisfaction of accomplishment and we would never have a desire to push through and endure to the end.
It is not so much what happens to us in our lives no matter how bad that we should care about, what really matters is what we do with those things that happen to us, and whether we can make them good.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Blindly Living
Once upon a time I was telling someone of some of the dissapointments I was having in my life and this person described me as "blindly optimistic." Which I took as a good thing...but they meant it in a negative way. Which led to a epic discussion of whether it in fact was a good thing or a bad thing.
So I decided I would write a blog about it, since I most often use my blogs as an open forum of thought and discussion...except I mostly just discuss with myself I think.
I guess to fully understand what blindly optimistic means I must first figure out what the word "blindly" means in this phrase. According to dictionary.com Blindly means : in a blind manner, without understanding, reservation, or objection.
So it is fair to say that I was optimistic without understanding, reservation or objection.
According to this particular person, being blindly optimistic is just a surefire way to set yourself up for a big disappointment. That is why they consider it a bad thing. Which is true in a way, I can't deny that. It is kindof like having a fear of heights. Just like it is physically hard for someone people to jump out of a tree, it is just as hard or harder emotionally to let yourself fall from heights that you are not comfortable with, which can happen a lot when you enter into any situation "blindly."
However it is impossible to not go through life without some type of blindness in any way. There are many types of things we do blindly in life. We are all blindly optimistic, we all have a blind trust, we all at some point love blindly, and many of us have a blind faith in many things. Being blind means you have to let your guard down, you have to be uninhibited and unrestricted. You have to open your eyes all the way and be %100 open to the consequences or rewards of the situation. It means you might not know why, or how you believe in what you are doing but you do it anyways because its right, because you might achieve something, because you dream of making something happen. It means not taking into account the many times you have fallen before. It means not thinking about how bad it hurt the last time you tried and it means stepping up to bat, even when you got hit in the face the last time you stood at the plate.
I think many people are afraid of the commitment that comes with such openess. Many people censor themselves because of the past. They know that they have tried before and have been ungracefully denied. Instead of being unrestricted and open many people become restricted, they withdraw their efforts and become closed. Maybe they don't try as hard the next time, maybe they don't climb as high in the tree next time because they know it hurts too much when they fall. People think if I just lower my expectations, then I know it won't hurt me as much when I fail.
I firmly think this is the exact opposite of what we need to do. Because what would the opposite of "blindly optimistic" be? It would be "guardedly optimistic" or "that would be cool if it happens but I don't think it will." I believe if someone ever loses this blindness for the things of life, they have lost a part of their innocence that is so essential to experiencing life to its fullest. I believe that when you get to the point where you are lowering your own expectations just so you might not fall as hard, then you really are never going to discover your true potential. Its like resorting to play defense the whole football game instead of offense. Sure, you might play excellent defense but your never giving yourself a chance to score and so your never giving yourself a chance to win. We cannot be so preoccupied with preventing failure, that we cheat ourself out of success.
Sure you might look dumb when you get hurt, and you probably will fall many many times but you have to let it roll off your shoulder or the next time you fall your only going to give 90% effort and the next time 80% and so on until you don't feel like trying at all. And at the point you have resigned yourself to your own fate of failure. The game of life has won because we have spent the whole time playing defense because we were too afraid of what might happen. Since we were too afraid of what might happen, we never knew what could happen.
Anyways that is all.
The End.
So I decided I would write a blog about it, since I most often use my blogs as an open forum of thought and discussion...except I mostly just discuss with myself I think.
I guess to fully understand what blindly optimistic means I must first figure out what the word "blindly" means in this phrase. According to dictionary.com Blindly means : in a blind manner, without understanding, reservation, or objection.
So it is fair to say that I was optimistic without understanding, reservation or objection.
According to this particular person, being blindly optimistic is just a surefire way to set yourself up for a big disappointment. That is why they consider it a bad thing. Which is true in a way, I can't deny that. It is kindof like having a fear of heights. Just like it is physically hard for someone people to jump out of a tree, it is just as hard or harder emotionally to let yourself fall from heights that you are not comfortable with, which can happen a lot when you enter into any situation "blindly."
However it is impossible to not go through life without some type of blindness in any way. There are many types of things we do blindly in life. We are all blindly optimistic, we all have a blind trust, we all at some point love blindly, and many of us have a blind faith in many things. Being blind means you have to let your guard down, you have to be uninhibited and unrestricted. You have to open your eyes all the way and be %100 open to the consequences or rewards of the situation. It means you might not know why, or how you believe in what you are doing but you do it anyways because its right, because you might achieve something, because you dream of making something happen. It means not taking into account the many times you have fallen before. It means not thinking about how bad it hurt the last time you tried and it means stepping up to bat, even when you got hit in the face the last time you stood at the plate.
I think many people are afraid of the commitment that comes with such openess. Many people censor themselves because of the past. They know that they have tried before and have been ungracefully denied. Instead of being unrestricted and open many people become restricted, they withdraw their efforts and become closed. Maybe they don't try as hard the next time, maybe they don't climb as high in the tree next time because they know it hurts too much when they fall. People think if I just lower my expectations, then I know it won't hurt me as much when I fail.
I firmly think this is the exact opposite of what we need to do. Because what would the opposite of "blindly optimistic" be? It would be "guardedly optimistic" or "that would be cool if it happens but I don't think it will." I believe if someone ever loses this blindness for the things of life, they have lost a part of their innocence that is so essential to experiencing life to its fullest. I believe that when you get to the point where you are lowering your own expectations just so you might not fall as hard, then you really are never going to discover your true potential. Its like resorting to play defense the whole football game instead of offense. Sure, you might play excellent defense but your never giving yourself a chance to score and so your never giving yourself a chance to win. We cannot be so preoccupied with preventing failure, that we cheat ourself out of success.
Sure you might look dumb when you get hurt, and you probably will fall many many times but you have to let it roll off your shoulder or the next time you fall your only going to give 90% effort and the next time 80% and so on until you don't feel like trying at all. And at the point you have resigned yourself to your own fate of failure. The game of life has won because we have spent the whole time playing defense because we were too afraid of what might happen. Since we were too afraid of what might happen, we never knew what could happen.
Anyways that is all.
The End.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
song of the day
Listen to They Might Be Giants- Birdhouse in your soul
and then everyone should make a little birdhouse in their soul. :)
ps. my last post was my 100th oh yeah :)
and then everyone should make a little birdhouse in their soul. :)
ps. my last post was my 100th oh yeah :)
Friday, April 4, 2008
My Ten Favorite Places
Here is a list of my ten favorite places in the Heber Valley...including Midway...just the whole valley. You know what I mean.
1. I love this place at night when the stars are out. I go to this place to get above it all. It provides an excellent view of the whole city, and its lights. I go to this place to clear my mind. This place breeds intense thinking and deep conversations. Many nights have I gone there, with or without people it is always there for me. The night before graduation was especially most memorable.
2. This place is nearly identical to the first place except it is a little higher up and provides a slightly different view of the whole valley. It is number 2 because it takes a little more effort to get there, and usually I'm too lazy. It is no less remarkable or thought provoking. There has only been one other person up there with me. Maybe thats how it will stay.
3. I go to this place to feed little feathered two-legged semi-aquatic/mostly land animals. I think they now solely depend on my food for their survival. Maybe they even recognize me by sight, or maybe I stink and they can smell me. I hope this doesn't make me sound like a player but I have taken almost every first date that I have had here first. I need to know if they enjoy it like I do. I don't care how hot they are, if they can't enjoy this then I have no place for them. haha. I have layed on the grass, I have sat on the playground, I have randomly walked around on the golf course thats next to it. I have hiked on the hills behind it. I have brought my dog here and watched him jump into the pond after these animals that I have referred to and he almost drowned, but I just laughed at him. This place has a calm, almost serene effect to it. Maybe its the water, maybe its the animals, maybe its all the green leaves and grass. I don't know. I love it.
4. I sit at this place, often when the sun is setting. Just me and my dog. Both silent companions looking out into the world at we love. I can see the highway from here and I often wonder about the people that are in these cars that I see. I wonder where they are going or what they are doing. I can see the airport and its planes land and take off and I wonder what it would be like to fly like that. I can see Mt. Timpanogas rising above in its white beauty with dark red and orange clouds around it and wonder what it would be like to be God and be able to create mountains like that.
5. When the weather is good, there may be no other pefect place to be than here. Just like place number 3, I almost always take my first dates here as well. Its a place mostly for little kids. I'm pretty much too big for all of the slides but maybe I like it because it makes me feel like a kid again. It has good grass and I definitely could lay on it all day. The swings are definitely a favorite, especially the second one from the left. It is my swing and always will be.
6. For a couple summers it was my home away from home. I loved it because it was a beautiful place to be. I loved the fresh cut green grass, I loved the smells, I loved the fog and mist that hung over it in the morning and the birds siging in the trees. I loved watching deer run across the grass and after everyone would leave, I loved to take a golf cart and just randomly drive it around the course. It was a good place.
7. I love driving this road, okay well its more like several roads but I love driving it. If I am having a stressful time the first thing I do is just go drive somewhere but I always end up driving this route. It takes me through Heber, to the highway, through Midway, past Memorial Hill, and back down to Heber. But there is one section or road that is much better than the others. I enjoy it a lot. But watch out for deer at night.
8. I've spent so much time working here I often thought I could never get away from the place. I met so many people there, so many people that I still know that have influenced me for the better. I dedicated a lot of hard work to this place, I started working there before most of my friends even thought of having a job. There was a lot of frustration spent and I almost always left exhuasted. But somehow it felt like home to me, maybe because it was more of a home to me. I know this place inside and out. It's changed now, probably for the better but it will always be the same for me.
9. I go to this place everyonce in a while and sit in a chair next to a big window that looks out onto Main Street. It is my chair and my window, and they don't even need to ask where I would like to sit anymore. During the winter I just order hot chocolate (it is very good hot chocolate) and sit and look out the window. For some reason I just like to sit and look. Call me weird but I feel like you can learn more by observing and watching sometimes.
10. My grandma sold the land a long time ago. But once upon a time I used to live there, next to my cousin. We had lots of farmland around us and we used to go "exploring" around the old barns and fields. We would always find something fascinating like a calander from 1970 or some old mysterious bones, most likely from a cat. Once there was a whole family of racoons that lived in the attic of one of the barns and we trapped them. We used to raise pigs together for 4-H there and once we caught a snake and it had babies the next morning. Those were part of the childhood memories everyone loves. They are the memories that we will sit around and talk about "back in the day." Those were carefree times, they were innocent times. Those were good times.
1. I love this place at night when the stars are out. I go to this place to get above it all. It provides an excellent view of the whole city, and its lights. I go to this place to clear my mind. This place breeds intense thinking and deep conversations. Many nights have I gone there, with or without people it is always there for me. The night before graduation was especially most memorable.
2. This place is nearly identical to the first place except it is a little higher up and provides a slightly different view of the whole valley. It is number 2 because it takes a little more effort to get there, and usually I'm too lazy. It is no less remarkable or thought provoking. There has only been one other person up there with me. Maybe thats how it will stay.
3. I go to this place to feed little feathered two-legged semi-aquatic/mostly land animals. I think they now solely depend on my food for their survival. Maybe they even recognize me by sight, or maybe I stink and they can smell me. I hope this doesn't make me sound like a player but I have taken almost every first date that I have had here first. I need to know if they enjoy it like I do. I don't care how hot they are, if they can't enjoy this then I have no place for them. haha. I have layed on the grass, I have sat on the playground, I have randomly walked around on the golf course thats next to it. I have hiked on the hills behind it. I have brought my dog here and watched him jump into the pond after these animals that I have referred to and he almost drowned, but I just laughed at him. This place has a calm, almost serene effect to it. Maybe its the water, maybe its the animals, maybe its all the green leaves and grass. I don't know. I love it.
4. I sit at this place, often when the sun is setting. Just me and my dog. Both silent companions looking out into the world at we love. I can see the highway from here and I often wonder about the people that are in these cars that I see. I wonder where they are going or what they are doing. I can see the airport and its planes land and take off and I wonder what it would be like to fly like that. I can see Mt. Timpanogas rising above in its white beauty with dark red and orange clouds around it and wonder what it would be like to be God and be able to create mountains like that.
5. When the weather is good, there may be no other pefect place to be than here. Just like place number 3, I almost always take my first dates here as well. Its a place mostly for little kids. I'm pretty much too big for all of the slides but maybe I like it because it makes me feel like a kid again. It has good grass and I definitely could lay on it all day. The swings are definitely a favorite, especially the second one from the left. It is my swing and always will be.
6. For a couple summers it was my home away from home. I loved it because it was a beautiful place to be. I loved the fresh cut green grass, I loved the smells, I loved the fog and mist that hung over it in the morning and the birds siging in the trees. I loved watching deer run across the grass and after everyone would leave, I loved to take a golf cart and just randomly drive it around the course. It was a good place.
7. I love driving this road, okay well its more like several roads but I love driving it. If I am having a stressful time the first thing I do is just go drive somewhere but I always end up driving this route. It takes me through Heber, to the highway, through Midway, past Memorial Hill, and back down to Heber. But there is one section or road that is much better than the others. I enjoy it a lot. But watch out for deer at night.
8. I've spent so much time working here I often thought I could never get away from the place. I met so many people there, so many people that I still know that have influenced me for the better. I dedicated a lot of hard work to this place, I started working there before most of my friends even thought of having a job. There was a lot of frustration spent and I almost always left exhuasted. But somehow it felt like home to me, maybe because it was more of a home to me. I know this place inside and out. It's changed now, probably for the better but it will always be the same for me.
9. I go to this place everyonce in a while and sit in a chair next to a big window that looks out onto Main Street. It is my chair and my window, and they don't even need to ask where I would like to sit anymore. During the winter I just order hot chocolate (it is very good hot chocolate) and sit and look out the window. For some reason I just like to sit and look. Call me weird but I feel like you can learn more by observing and watching sometimes.
10. My grandma sold the land a long time ago. But once upon a time I used to live there, next to my cousin. We had lots of farmland around us and we used to go "exploring" around the old barns and fields. We would always find something fascinating like a calander from 1970 or some old mysterious bones, most likely from a cat. Once there was a whole family of racoons that lived in the attic of one of the barns and we trapped them. We used to raise pigs together for 4-H there and once we caught a snake and it had babies the next morning. Those were part of the childhood memories everyone loves. They are the memories that we will sit around and talk about "back in the day." Those were carefree times, they were innocent times. Those were good times.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
My Dream Jobs
So I decided I'm lame and I don't really have anything from my real life to blog about. So I'm going to construct a list of things that I wish was my life. This was a pretty fun list to make too.
This is a list of my top 10 Dream Jobs. They are in order of when I thought of them, because it might just be impossible to put them in order from best to worst- plus it gives me headache. But I did come up with 10 pretty bangin jobs. I'm sure you'll agree. Umm hmm.
National Geographic Photographer
Pros: I would get to travel the world. I will get to be able to see things I would never otherwise to get see, I would get to do things I would never otherwise get to do. I could fill up my whole house with pictures that I, myself took. I could capture "the shot." Plus I might just flip open a magazine or a calander and boast that I did in fact take that picture.
Cons: I may just drop my camera one too many times probably out in the middle of the ocean and watch it sink to the bottom, and get fired. Maybe I would fall out of a tree stand and paralyze myself, or I might just get eaten by a leopard. I may contract some weird flesh eating disease in some remote part of the world and the closest hospital would be 100 miles away. Or I could just sit in the savannah for 36 straight hours waiting for a herd of elephants to pass by. Fun.
Independant Filmaker/Music Video Director
Pros: I could really get to express my creative side. I could be as random and idiosyncratic as my mind wished. Maybe I could make the next Napolian Dynamite and potentially make millions. I could make music videos for some of the best bands in the world, I would be able to get to know the band members and maybe get their autographs. Oh yeah. There are endless possiblities for making a music video. That would be fun.
Cons: I really dont have a creative side in the first place. I don't know first thing about the best camera angles or even how to turn most video cameras on. Ok, well I might know how to turn them on but knowing me I would probably think I was recording and go the whole scene without actually recording anything. That would suck...but I would get a kick out randomly exclaiming CUT! every now and then...What if my music video flops and I end up on the list of MTV's Top Ten worst videos ever? I would establish a bad rep in a day, I would become old news and my career would be over before it even started.
Onwer of a Zoo (or whatever they are actually called)
Pros: I would be surrounded by animals all day everyday. This would make me very happy(I love animals) Not just animals like dogs and cats, but exotic animals like penguins and monkeys. Maybe I would even be able to take some home because everyone would like to have a pet penguin waddling around the house. I would be able to reserve the whole zoo for a day and throw the best family reunions ever. (or any type of party for that matter.) That would be fantastic.
Cons: I would probably stink all day. I would probably spend too much time playing with the animals instead of keeping track of the finances or whatever you do. I might grow a little too attached to certain animals and probably yell at little kids for teasing them. I would get caught with roughly 54 different species of animals at my house that I have "snuck" out of the zoo. I might enjoy this job so much I might neglect my family. That would be no bueno. What if a lion or alligator gets out at night and terrorizes the neighborhood? I could get fined, or lose my job. Or worse someone could die. Then I would quit and feel really bad and retreat into the depths of my own misery.
Teacher
Pros: Probably the most realistic occupation out of all of these. I would love to be able to teach, it's about helping kids, it's about making a difference in someones life while they are still young and teachable. It's about influencing the youth for the better. It's about inspiring and expanding their horizons. Thats what its all about.
Cons: I might still act more like one of the kids instead of a mature teacher. I would be tempted to have an abstract grading system and weird classroom rules that never make sense in the first place. Other veteran teachers would probably look down on me for not being strict enough, or refer to me as "the greenhorn." Instead of eating the in faculty room and bonding with all the other teachers, I would probably spend my lunches in the gym playing basketball with the kids. Oh well, it would still be great.
Novelist/Writer
Pros: I like to write. Once again I could use my creativeness. This is a career that really has no boundaries. I like that. Judging by the length of my blogs, maybe writing a full length novel really wouldn't be that much of a stretch. If I am good enough I can inspire kids to read, something that no one really does a lot of anymore. Maybe I could become as rich as J.K. Rowling. After all, there really is not much to writing if you think about it. Just assemble the english language in such a way that sounds really good and come up with a good idea to write about.
Cons: Writing is much harder than it sounds. I take that back, to be GREAT at writing is really hard. It takes a long time to think out a full plot, and insert all the small details and descriptions that make a story something great. It took J.K. Rowling more than 15 years of planning to figure out her story. I don't think I could do that. I would get bored with my own story way before the public even knew about it. Most likely I would never make enough to live off of this career. Dang.
Cruise Ship Captain
Pros: I have seriously taken this career into consideration. It would be unique thats for sure. Once again I would get to travel, I get to wear that cool hat and hopefully I would get to turn a huge wooden wheel. I would get to meet new people all the time and I would get a kick out of jumping on the intercom system and yelling "ICEBERG ICEBERG! HEAD FOR THE LIFEBOATS!" when its only obviously that we are on our way to the Bahamas and were clearly sailing in tropical waters.
Cons: First of all I dont know how you ever even become a cruise boat captain? I don't know one thing about steering a boat or the nautical coordinates you use to navigate your way around the Earth. I guess in emergency situations I could navigate off the North Star. If any of the passengers knew of my ineptness they would have never gotten on the boat. Too bad for them I guess they'll never have the chance to get off the boat either...he he..More than likely I'll be tempted to put the boat on cruise control and lay around in the pool, or play Marco Polo with my crew members. Even though the captains quarters is probably very very nice, I would not really look forward to spending that much time on a ship, and I would probably attach a barf bag across my neck and take it with me everywhere I went.
Song Lyricist
Pros: This would be a very intriguing career to me. Most songs that are sung are written by someone else. I think I would love it, can you imagine hearing a song you wrote being sung on the radio? This may not even take too much skill, have you ever looked up lyrics to an awesome song and realized that the lyrics really aren't that wonderful or they really don't mean a whole lot? Then you think to yourself, "Wow I could of maybe wrote something that good." Besides some of the most famous songs are written while the authors were on drugs...It can't be that hard then right? Yes, this would be a fascinating job and it could earn me a lot of money. Plus I get my name mentioned on the CD cover and I get credits. Oh yeah.
Cons: Instead of making MTV's Top Ten worst videos I would make MTV's list of Top Ten worst written songs. What if I wrote a really cheesy chorus and it was mimicked for all time and enternity? What if I accidentally got on the wrong side of all those "gansta rappers" and ended up shot or stabbed in the studio like they always seem to end up?
Sports Coach
Pros: It is just about every guys dream to be some kind of sports coach. Coaching sports would be fun, not just because I'm a big fan of sports but because once again, I would get to teach kids. It's not like sports is the most important thing in life, but its the lessons you learn as you play sports. Its the concept of pushing yourself farther than you have ever pushed yourself before. Its knowing that you can achieve something you never thought you could have before. Its the discipline you learn as you actually have to work towards your goals to accomplish great feats. Thats what sports teaches you about yourself and about life really.
One of the 12 Apostles
Pros: Haha yes, I did actually think up this myself and I would consider it very much a dream job. Well I suppose there are a ton of pros to this one. Let's start with the potential of meeting the Savior and God, as well as a whole assortment of great people face to face. Then lets go with the fact that this job must mean that I am doing something right and I'm pretty much ensured a happy life forever and ever. I would probably get to travel a lot and experience a lot of great and wonderful experiences that just will never happen to anyone else. What a job it would be.
Cons: Thinking and writing up all the talks I must give. That would be very hard for me. The whole job would just be plain hard. Especially at General Conference where like 1/4 of the world is watching you. What if I went crosseyed trying to read the teleprompter? It would be hard to be such a good example all day everyday. It would be unbelievable hard to maintain such a good image in the public scrutiny, as well as answer very difficult questions in such a way that doesn't offend other people.
ps. I have no idea why this one has a smaller font. I tried to fix it but it made it worse?
This is a list of my top 10 Dream Jobs. They are in order of when I thought of them, because it might just be impossible to put them in order from best to worst- plus it gives me headache. But I did come up with 10 pretty bangin jobs. I'm sure you'll agree. Umm hmm.
National Geographic Photographer
Pros: I would get to travel the world. I will get to be able to see things I would never otherwise to get see, I would get to do things I would never otherwise get to do. I could fill up my whole house with pictures that I, myself took. I could capture "the shot." Plus I might just flip open a magazine or a calander and boast that I did in fact take that picture.
Cons: I may just drop my camera one too many times probably out in the middle of the ocean and watch it sink to the bottom, and get fired. Maybe I would fall out of a tree stand and paralyze myself, or I might just get eaten by a leopard. I may contract some weird flesh eating disease in some remote part of the world and the closest hospital would be 100 miles away. Or I could just sit in the savannah for 36 straight hours waiting for a herd of elephants to pass by. Fun.
Independant Filmaker/Music Video Director
Pros: I could really get to express my creative side. I could be as random and idiosyncratic as my mind wished. Maybe I could make the next Napolian Dynamite and potentially make millions. I could make music videos for some of the best bands in the world, I would be able to get to know the band members and maybe get their autographs. Oh yeah. There are endless possiblities for making a music video. That would be fun.
Cons: I really dont have a creative side in the first place. I don't know first thing about the best camera angles or even how to turn most video cameras on. Ok, well I might know how to turn them on but knowing me I would probably think I was recording and go the whole scene without actually recording anything. That would suck...but I would get a kick out randomly exclaiming CUT! every now and then...What if my music video flops and I end up on the list of MTV's Top Ten worst videos ever? I would establish a bad rep in a day, I would become old news and my career would be over before it even started.
Onwer of a Zoo (or whatever they are actually called)
Pros: I would be surrounded by animals all day everyday. This would make me very happy(I love animals) Not just animals like dogs and cats, but exotic animals like penguins and monkeys. Maybe I would even be able to take some home because everyone would like to have a pet penguin waddling around the house. I would be able to reserve the whole zoo for a day and throw the best family reunions ever. (or any type of party for that matter.) That would be fantastic.
Cons: I would probably stink all day. I would probably spend too much time playing with the animals instead of keeping track of the finances or whatever you do. I might grow a little too attached to certain animals and probably yell at little kids for teasing them. I would get caught with roughly 54 different species of animals at my house that I have "snuck" out of the zoo. I might enjoy this job so much I might neglect my family. That would be no bueno. What if a lion or alligator gets out at night and terrorizes the neighborhood? I could get fined, or lose my job. Or worse someone could die. Then I would quit and feel really bad and retreat into the depths of my own misery.
Teacher
Pros: Probably the most realistic occupation out of all of these. I would love to be able to teach, it's about helping kids, it's about making a difference in someones life while they are still young and teachable. It's about influencing the youth for the better. It's about inspiring and expanding their horizons. Thats what its all about.
Cons: I might still act more like one of the kids instead of a mature teacher. I would be tempted to have an abstract grading system and weird classroom rules that never make sense in the first place. Other veteran teachers would probably look down on me for not being strict enough, or refer to me as "the greenhorn." Instead of eating the in faculty room and bonding with all the other teachers, I would probably spend my lunches in the gym playing basketball with the kids. Oh well, it would still be great.
Novelist/Writer
Pros: I like to write. Once again I could use my creativeness. This is a career that really has no boundaries. I like that. Judging by the length of my blogs, maybe writing a full length novel really wouldn't be that much of a stretch. If I am good enough I can inspire kids to read, something that no one really does a lot of anymore. Maybe I could become as rich as J.K. Rowling. After all, there really is not much to writing if you think about it. Just assemble the english language in such a way that sounds really good and come up with a good idea to write about.
Cons: Writing is much harder than it sounds. I take that back, to be GREAT at writing is really hard. It takes a long time to think out a full plot, and insert all the small details and descriptions that make a story something great. It took J.K. Rowling more than 15 years of planning to figure out her story. I don't think I could do that. I would get bored with my own story way before the public even knew about it. Most likely I would never make enough to live off of this career. Dang.
Cruise Ship Captain
Pros: I have seriously taken this career into consideration. It would be unique thats for sure. Once again I would get to travel, I get to wear that cool hat and hopefully I would get to turn a huge wooden wheel. I would get to meet new people all the time and I would get a kick out of jumping on the intercom system and yelling "ICEBERG ICEBERG! HEAD FOR THE LIFEBOATS!" when its only obviously that we are on our way to the Bahamas and were clearly sailing in tropical waters.
Cons: First of all I dont know how you ever even become a cruise boat captain? I don't know one thing about steering a boat or the nautical coordinates you use to navigate your way around the Earth. I guess in emergency situations I could navigate off the North Star. If any of the passengers knew of my ineptness they would have never gotten on the boat. Too bad for them I guess they'll never have the chance to get off the boat either...he he..More than likely I'll be tempted to put the boat on cruise control and lay around in the pool, or play Marco Polo with my crew members. Even though the captains quarters is probably very very nice, I would not really look forward to spending that much time on a ship, and I would probably attach a barf bag across my neck and take it with me everywhere I went.
Song Lyricist
Pros: This would be a very intriguing career to me. Most songs that are sung are written by someone else. I think I would love it, can you imagine hearing a song you wrote being sung on the radio? This may not even take too much skill, have you ever looked up lyrics to an awesome song and realized that the lyrics really aren't that wonderful or they really don't mean a whole lot? Then you think to yourself, "Wow I could of maybe wrote something that good." Besides some of the most famous songs are written while the authors were on drugs...It can't be that hard then right? Yes, this would be a fascinating job and it could earn me a lot of money. Plus I get my name mentioned on the CD cover and I get credits. Oh yeah.
Cons: Instead of making MTV's Top Ten worst videos I would make MTV's list of Top Ten worst written songs. What if I wrote a really cheesy chorus and it was mimicked for all time and enternity? What if I accidentally got on the wrong side of all those "gansta rappers" and ended up shot or stabbed in the studio like they always seem to end up?
Sports Coach
Pros: It is just about every guys dream to be some kind of sports coach. Coaching sports would be fun, not just because I'm a big fan of sports but because once again, I would get to teach kids. It's not like sports is the most important thing in life, but its the lessons you learn as you play sports. Its the concept of pushing yourself farther than you have ever pushed yourself before. Its knowing that you can achieve something you never thought you could have before. Its the discipline you learn as you actually have to work towards your goals to accomplish great feats. Thats what sports teaches you about yourself and about life really.
Cons: I'll have to start my pep talks 2 hours before each game if I start talking like I blog. Instead of listening to me they will just want me to shut up. I will stylize my coaching techniques to that of Denzel Washingtons in Remember the Titans, and I will wake them up in the middle of the night to go running through Heber's cemetery to point out the little grave that says Unknown Black Male and then I will give a big speach about race and how it can tear us apart or bring us together and in the process I will leave my players utterly confused and bewildered. I may be a little too passionate of a coach and I might just take it a little too seriously. I would come to practice everyday in the shortest shorts possible, with the same sweat stained t-shirt and a sweatband or two of course. I would occasionally blow my whistle at random times just to scare my players. After an emotional win or loss my "after game remarks" may just very well last another two hours and somehow I'll find a way to tie the game into a bigger game called Life and I'll end up telling them all how important it is to succeed in life and we will all be crying after the end of every game.
Astronaut
Pros: This job would be out of this world. HA. Get it? No but seriously, how cool would it be to be looking at all of earth from space? How cool would it be to just float around? I mean really how could you say no to something like that?
Cons: Besides the fact that I would never make it through the rigorous tests and trials that I would have to endure, I don't take very well to the fact that I would have to spend the whole trip in an adult diaper. I have to admit the movie Apollo 13 scared the crap out of me and dashed all my desire to actually consider being an astronaut. I dont really like the idea of accidentally floating away into nothingness or instantly vaporizing myself either...And if I ever came across my actual alien up there I think that adult diaper would come in handy.
One of the 12 Apostles
Pros: Haha yes, I did actually think up this myself and I would consider it very much a dream job. Well I suppose there are a ton of pros to this one. Let's start with the potential of meeting the Savior and God, as well as a whole assortment of great people face to face. Then lets go with the fact that this job must mean that I am doing something right and I'm pretty much ensured a happy life forever and ever. I would probably get to travel a lot and experience a lot of great and wonderful experiences that just will never happen to anyone else. What a job it would be.
Cons: Thinking and writing up all the talks I must give. That would be very hard for me. The whole job would just be plain hard. Especially at General Conference where like 1/4 of the world is watching you. What if I went crosseyed trying to read the teleprompter? It would be hard to be such a good example all day everyday. It would be unbelievable hard to maintain such a good image in the public scrutiny, as well as answer very difficult questions in such a way that doesn't offend other people.
ps. I have no idea why this one has a smaller font. I tried to fix it but it made it worse?
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