overwhelmed and frustrated and going insane

So my boss at my second job-Raintree Resorts just got fired. Which was really unexpected and quite a shock for everyone that works here. The company is run by some people in Mexico and they don't really know what it is like down here and I guess they thought he was the problem, which he definitely wasn't. So this leaves me in a very awkward situation because my job was to be his assistant and the only reason I got this job was to help him. He was like the head and the brain of the operation and I was just his arms lol. Now I have no head. I really don't know if there is still a place for me here maybe they will tell me to go to?

Although I may have been happy for about .01 seconds when the thought of only having one job and working a regular 40 hour week came to mind. But this is not a very good situation because I'm really depending on this second job and the secondary income to save up another extra couple thousand dollars for my mission. Basically everything I earn for one job covers all my bills and living expenses that I just naturally have, and everything I earn for this job gets saved. So without this job there is not much saving at all...I want to leave as soon as possible but I still have SO many expenses to cover....

Even though the Bishop has told me that the ward can take care of the rest of my monthly mission expense I still have a goal of saving another $1000-1500 dollars just so I have a good conscience in knowing that I didn't have to burden others at my expense.

I just got done buying a years worth of contacts= $300
(and depending on where I go I may have to buy a whole other years worth)=$300
And lets not forget a pair of glasses for backup=$200
Then comes at least another suit (probably two), two pairs of shoes, socks, ties, shirts..blah blah= appx. $650-700
I still have $300 on my credit card...
Damage from Jeep that needs fixed before I can sell it=$1000
Dentist appointment on the 22nd...= $100 - ?

So basically another $4000 before I can even think of leaving. GAH! Oh man living life is expensive......but all of a sudden putting your "normal life" on pause to leave for two years is even more expensive. Especially when the only place you can get money is from yourself, not your parents or some wealthy uncle or grandparent. I devote 16 hours a day and 20 straight hours of work on the weekends to try and make this happen but its just not happening very well. I'm tired, I never get enough sleep, my emotions are drained like a battery that won't charge anymore. I feel like a hamster running in its wheel, I can work myself into the ground and never have anything to show for it. I hate driving to Park City in the middle of the night. I clock in at the exact same times everyday, I do the exact same things everyday, I eat the same food everyday, no one hardly ever talks to me except my co-workers. I feel overwhelmed and frustrated. I look like a walking zombie. If I close my eyes for more than 10 seconds I'll probably fall asleep. I hardly feel like a part of society. I only interact with like 10 people everyday. I feel like I have no place anymore, like I'm in my own little world that never has an end. One day flows into another that flows into another and pretty soon I have no idea what day it is or what time it is and I don't even care anyways. I think I'm going partially insane. This blog sucks.

-Feeling overwhelmed and frustrated
(I'm going to start ending my blogs like the anonymous people do when they write to those advice columns or whatever)