a blog of an ironic paradox

So tonight makes the second night at work that has been really stressful. Last night at work I didn't have a password or login assigned to me by my manager to get into the computers that I need to get into so I had to call this Marriott support number that would assign me a password and the number started like 1-800 but on these stupid phones you have to dial 9 and then 1 and then the number if it is an outside number so basically I ended up dialing 9-1-1 to begin with and everyone knows what happens if you dial 9-1-1 So basically the police were sent to the building and my supervisor had to tell them that I had just dialed the wrong number and then to make matters worse I ended up dialing 911 two more times in a row and I had to tell them sorry it was an accident lol ahhhhh! That was a little embarassing and frustrating. And I never did get my login and password that I really need.

Then I had a very angry guy, who seemed very drunk as well. He called down from his room at like 3 in the morning and demanded that I have a cab waiting for him outside in 2 minutes, which is very impossible to do and I told him that I didn't have a number to call but I would look in the phone book and so he started cussing and telling me I better find a number or else he was coming behind the desk when he got down here so I had to call the security guard over and have him "protect me" lol By the time the guy came down I hadn't been able to get ahold of any taxi cab service that operated at 3 in the morning and of course the guy was furious and wanted to know where the manager or anybody was and I told him I was the only one here and he didn't believe me. So finally after about 15 minutes I got a taxi cab that was still working and he calmed down a little bit and left.

Then today I had a lady come in at like 1 in the morning and she was not a very happy lady. Probably because she was checking into a hotel at 1 in the morning or maybe her feet itched or maybe her dog died last night or I dont know but she was my very first ever check in and so I got everything ready and I went to make her keys except guess what? I haven't been given a password or login to the thing that makes the keys and I had to call and wake one of my co-workers up which really made me feel bad and it took like 15 minutes and she was really really pissed off and I told her I was sorry and that I was new and it wasn't my fault I just wasn't given a password to make her keys but she wasn't convinced and really angry.

And I think the fun has just begun because skiing season is around the corner and so is the Sundance Film Festival and I've heard stories about it being really bad during those times so I hope things can go smoothly by then.

I dont understand what makes people so angry all the time. Sure its fine to be angry once in a while and maybe its ok for certain situations but it really gets me when people are just brashly rude to people that have nothing to do with the reason they are angry. Everyone really should be a little more understanding towards each other I think it goes a long way to maybe try and connect with other people instead of brush them off your shoulder and act like your the only one that needs things. This kind of reminds me a book me and Hannah read in the book store called There's Even Hope for the Flowers....or something like that lol. It's about all these caterpillars who don't realize the purpose of life and they dont realize that they are capable of flying and enjoying something so much better so what they do is climb on top of each other and make huge towers and each one has a desire to get to the top and they step literally and figuratively step on each other to get to the top. They dont know why the want to get to the top, it just seems to be what everyone else wants to do so they want to as well. And when they get to the top they see other huge towers made by other caterpillars exactly like them, they also see a few butterflies that are flying around freely and they are jealous of them, and some get thrown off the top by others that are trying to get to the top themselves. Its just a childrens book but it is definitely very symbolic of human society and the idea that humans and their false ideas and false glorifications are their own greatest enemy, their own greatest obstacle, their own greatest challenge. Not just to themselves but to others as well. Sometimes we do stupid things just because everyone else is doing these same things and we dont really know why and after a while maybe we are even doing it subconciously without knowing reason and consequence. On the flip side humans and their ideas can lead to such great things, things that can counter the destructive nature that some people have just like the caterpillars that were capable of learning how to fly. Humans can do the same thing and can literally set themselves free of such confusion and twisted thinking. In a way it is important to set yourself apart from the crowd and take a look around and know what it is your doing, and what you want. And then help others in search of something good.

Another example of this is a movie I once saw that was made in like 1970 when computers were coming out and they had just gone to space and stuff. Basically it was a sci-fi movie about this human made supercomputer that was so powerful that it could think and reason and learn from mistakes just like a normal human could. Well they put this computer in charge of this shuttle that was going to Mars and it had like 6 guys on the shuttle too but they weren't very well trained because everyone figured the computer was going to do it all and it did for a while but something happened and the computer began to think on its own and it began to use its inherited human ability for itself. These basic principles of thinking and reasoning and judging and favoritism and love and hate were put into the computer by humans for a good intent. But the computer turned on them and started thinking for itself and ultimately killed everyone on the shuttle. Everyone else thought it was just a normal movie but it really made me think about how humans can be their own cause of destruction....and then I thought but they can also be their own greatest cause of success. It is definitely one of the most ironic paradoxes of life.