if the moon had to runaway, and all the stars didn't want to play, don't waste the sun on a rainy day. The wind will soon blow it all away.

Hello. It is 1:11 in the morning... haha I guess that qualifies as it's morning?

No...I am not having trouble sleeping. I'm just at work wishing I was sleeping mmm.zzzz.mmm. Actually I have David the Ent here with me and I guess I'm supposed to be training him still and so I'm sorta letting him do the reports but he's almost done and I haven't really had to help him because he's just got mad ent skills and I think he can pick up giant rocks and throw them into castles.

Anyways I'm definitely going to copy a Hannah list now. It is the list of the top 10 favorite things to eat. Its a pretty good list because like music, and sleep, and friends, and warm fuzzy blankets, and sunsets and sunrises, food is just something that just goes with life. So here is my list it's probably not in order of best and its just the things that I think of off the top of my head right now in the dead of night.

1. French Toast
2. Spaghetti
3. Warm Cookies
4. Cereal (yeah i said cereal)
5. Hot chocolate in the cold
6. Fruit :)
7. Steak
8. Chips and Salsa
9. Brownies
10. Pie

Now I'm pretty hungry. Howcome I never bring any food with me to eat? Actually I brought a hot tamale the other day that Hannah brought to me it was pretty great and I had never had them before and I was a little skeptical of it lol. Well work is really slow, its almost too slow. If you have ever read The Shining this kindof feels like that lol. But I guess I would rather have it be slow than busy or hectic and stressful. And today is payday yay! Its the first time I've gotten paid in like a month or maybe even two...That will be nice because its kind of hard to live forever without money lol although I tried...

Anyways life has still been going great for the most part. I'm trying to get used to Tyler being gone. Well hes not really gone just down in Orem but in some ways he is gone. I've been down to visit him quite a few times but I guess things just aren't quite the way they used to be when we could hang out around heber and I would always be over at his house or we would go get something to eat or go talk. I guess things are changing and I've always thought change is a good thing though. It seems to be getting harder and harder to be around Dylon too he seems to be anchored down by his girlfriend and at times its very frustrating. They are really some of my only friends left around here because everyone my age has left to college and gone. Plus my friends are more like my family just because I've never had the type of family I could hold on to..except for my Grandma. I think I can be loyal to friendships almost to a fault. Sometimes it feels like I hold on to things so hard that I end up shattering them. Its a bit depressing if I think about it too much. I guess I just can never see the outcome of the changes around me and thats always a little unsettling but who knows what will happen next in life anyways? Hannah and I are doing great and our new relationship has been something for me to hold to and is definitely a bright spot in a tunnel that can get pretty dark. When I spend time with her time could stand still and I could care less about anything other than that moment. Speaking of who knows what will happen next I would have never thought a couple of weeks ago we would be even remotely as close as we are but I think its pretty awesome.

Well there I went and over analyzed every little thing again lol sorry that whole paragraph was semi-depressing but all in all things are great because I know things work out for the good of everyone involved and sometimes you have to take it easy and let life put you where it needs you. Not that you should just roll over and let things push you around but you have to know when to let the current take you instead of fighting to swim against it. Oh wow what a philosophical Travis quote lol. I dont even know what I'm talking about anymore uhhhh I'm tired. Okay well anyways I'm done :)