The End of a Year

Well it's time to say goodbye to the year 2007 and time to start saying hello to 2008.

Throughout the year I have come to rely on this little computer screen and keyboard to write down my thoughts, my feelings, my beliefs, and my desires. This little website in a way has become something of a perfect friend, it will never judge me for what I say to it, it will never laugh at how dumb I sound, it will never criticize me for the errors I have made, and it always will listen, because well basically it has to :) Like I said in my first ever blog, it is "like my own personal broadcast dish to the world"....Did I just use quotation marks on my own quote...are you supposed to do that? Oh well.

I have been here blogging for one full year now...(actually it will be a full year on the 23 of January but keeping with the end of the year theme this works lol) I have officially written 77 blogs for the year (actually 78, I drafted an enormous blog on the fact that if insects really wanted to take over humans, and the world, they really could. But after re reading it I decided no one would even care about such a blog haha so I deleted it) that amounts to 1 blog every 4.4 days and exactly 34,309 words- in case anyone was wondering besides me. Well thats pretty good if you ask me. Far better than what I expected from myself.

It is true that this collection of blogs have not fully expressed what this year has been about for me, it would take far much more than I am willing to write. Usually I just end up blabbing about anything and everything really. From my very first blog, appropriately titled The First One where it all started. To my thoughts on how easy it is to eat a big mac, to my frustrations with the 3 different jobs I have had, to my sudden intrest in joining the air force, to my obsession with trying to get a red pin in bowling, to my feeble attempts at poetry, and story writing, to my musings on such life topics as change, love, and consequences.

I have done quite a few things I regret (although I learned so much from them that its hard to regret them) I can truly say I have met a few people that have actually changed my life, some of them in more ways than they probably even know. I have met people that are really an inspiration to me, once again probably in ways they don't even recogize.

I have learned lessons that I should have learned a long time ago, I have learned things about me that I've never known before. I tried writing some paragraphs on what I have learned this year and it actually resembled a very long boring textbook or something so I'm going to settle for a list (suprise)

-I have learned that quite simply, it is impossible for me to ever be comfortable if I know that something is not going right in my life.

-Even more, it is almost just as impossible for me to be content knowing that others around me are having things go wrong in their own lives. Especially if I can see that its from their own mistakes...It will literally drive me crazy if I am not able to show them why and how such things are happening to them.

- I've learned that I tend to think WAY beneath the surface of just about everything that happens (some of my blogs are evidence of that) but I've learned that thats not really a bad thing, actually its much better than thinking on the surface, yes?

-I've learned that a little bit of humor can go a long way.

-I've learned that I use commas way too much...like in the last sentence...plus I use periods a lot...?

- I've learned that sometimes I come off as too overbearing and a little too over reactive, maybe intense? I guess is the right word..

- I've learned to accept that fact that unlike most people, I've never had the ideal family and the great relationships you can have with that. Because of this in a way I've tried to substitute my friends in place of my family. This results in me valuing my relationships with people more than possibly anything ever, they really are so fragile and I think everyone including me takes them for granted way too much. It is an essential thing to be able to have connections with other people in life. It is so important to be able to have the best friends you can get. And of course a family...for those of you lucky enough to have the ideal family.

- I've learned that I never REALLY give up on anything unless it is absolutely made clear to me that I should. It is very difficult for me to quit on something unless I have tried every possible way to make it work.

- I've learned to be able to take a deep breath and give things time to play themselves out
- I've learned that I seem to be loyal to things..almost to a fault
- I've learned that I usually don't make the first impression that I hope to make
- I've learned how amazing the simple things in life can be
- I've learned that second chances can turn out to be the best things ever.
- I've learned how to drive the speed limit, and that you don't actually get tickets for doing that - I've learned to appreciate my religion much more than I ever have before
- I've learned that being honest is actually the easiest thing to do in the end
- I've learned how pure happiness can be so simple

Well. It has been a long crazy year. It feels like this year has stretched on and on forever and in a way I'm happy to have it end. There were many highs and many lows. I may have possibly cried more than I ever have in my life over a million different things, but I may have possibly laughed more than ever before. If I could summarize the year with one word it would be change. This really has been a huge year of change for me. If I was to make a graph of all the changes I have made, and all of the different feelings I have felt it would look like some crazy stock market graph.

Anyways I should thank the small amount of readers that I do have for reading my rather boring, often way too long, and somewhat philosophical blogs. But even if no one ever read my blogs I guess I would still blog because I like to be able to write things down and maybe someday someone will read them and maybe actually like them and then maybe actually like me :)

In the end I've learned to understand how simple life can be, how easy things can be accomplished, but how hard everything can be made to seem. I've learned how fragile and precious the very basic things in life are. How important it is to hold on to what we are all given, and how wonderful it can be if we work to turn what we have into something so much more. We are given the world, and its so full of oppurtunities hopefully we can make the most of it.

There is a good quote that I've heard many times,
"If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole lives would change."
- a Buddha quote

It's kindof girly lol.
But it's true.
Goodbye until next year!

when all your love is gone who will save me from all i'm up against in this world

Hello blog.

Christmas is over it was pretty great. My "big" present was a new set of golf clubs which makes me laugh because if my dad had ever seen me play golf before he wouldn't have bothered to get me any golf clubs but oh well lol. My little brother got some matching ones too they are cool but trying to picture my brother golfing makes me laugh as well lol.
I got my grandma one of those miniature white Christus statues I thought it was a really good gift for her and she was really really happy about it she said she had been wanting one forever so that made me happy.
I was mostly excited about the guitars I got my little brother and sister. My sister was really excited and shows a lot of interest in learning. But I knew she would because she is always like that. My brother kind of seems to not really care so much which makes me sad...Hopefully he will be more interested sometime in the future. In the meantime I've been stealing his guitar to learn how to play myself. All I have is a dvd that shows how to practice and stuff but its fun. And I've decided that I pretty much HAVE to get my own sometime soon so that will be fun to.

So I think I'm going to be picking up a second job. I dont know what the actual job title is called but its an office job dealing with clients who own timeshares or rent out from this resort called Raintree Resorts it is right across from The Canyons, but the department I would work in is called the Miners Club. I will work for a guy I met in my ward he is really cool but I think he's going crazy because he doesn't have an assistant so I guess I'll just be his assistant. The Raintree is even nicer than the Marriott timeshares I got to see a model showroom it was pretty nice. They are basically like houses, I would be happy to live in one lol. The pay is better than what I make at the Marriott too.
From the sound of it, this job sounds more like a full time job than a part time job. Hopefully I won't get burned out working both jobs. They aren't really phsyical labor like road construction was they're just mostly mental I guess lol hopefully I dont go mental though haha :) But I really would like the extra money, and hopefully I can save up a bit for college because that would be nice for sure.
Mostly I'm just sick of coming home from work and having the whole day off. It's really boring to tell you the truth and it doesn't help that I dont have a life and have no one to hang out with so I guess I might as well be doing something to earn money for now. Plus it's nice to be busy it keeps your mind off of other things.

Well thats pretty much it for now...
BYE!

can you hide eggs around the room so they can have an egg hunt on their wedding night??

Here at the Marriott Hotel we often encounter many many different types of people. Some of them are white and some of them are black. Some of them are tall and one of them was actually shorter than his luggage lol. Some of them have crazy accents from who knows where and some of them talk worse than the cowboys from Heber. Some of them are rich and spoiled, others are smart, but a lot of people are just plain dumb. :)

We have compiled a notebook of some of the most ridiculous things guests have said to us. I would like to share it with you.

- (After just walking down the stairs to lobby) "Where are the stairs?"

- "Do they sell gas here on Sundays?"

- Guest: "Do you have any rooms available?"
Chris: "no I'm sorry, we're sold out."
Guest: "Sold out?"
Chris: "Sold out."
Guest: "Sold out?"
Chris:"Sold out."
Guest:"Sold out?"
Chris: "SOLD OUT!"

-Guest: "Our DVD player is not playing any sound."
Whitney: "is your TV on channel 00?"
Guest: "Oh, the TV has to be on also?"

-Guest: "How do I get here from Main Street?"
Eric: "The city bus is available until 10:30 PM."
Guest: "Do I have to make a reservation?"

-Guest: "When will the next paper come out?"
Jen: "Tomorrow morning, sir."
Guest: "Is that a Sunday paper?"
Jen: "No sir, tomorrow is Saturday."
Guest: "Right, but will it be a Sunday paper?"

-Guest: "Hi, I need someone to make the pull out beds...I didn't realize that they weren't already made."
Eric: "I'm sorry ma'm we don't do that here"
Guest: "Well...um...how do we make them then?"
Eric: "Um...with the sheets."
Guest: "The sheets? Well where are they?"

Guest: "My son is getting married and staying here with his bride..."
Jen: "Congrats!"
Guest: " Since it will be Easter, would you be willing to hide some chocolate easter eggs around the room so they can have an easter egg hunt on their wedding night?"

Guest: "Do you have wireless internet?" "Where is it because I cannot SEE it?"

Guest: "Is deer valley outdoors?"

Guest: "Can you tell me what time the rides at the resort open tomorrow?"
Jake: "They open at noon"
Guest: "What time at noon?"
Jake: What? (to make sure he heard right)
Guest: "What time at noon?"
Jake: "They open at 12 which is noon"
Guest: "Ok, Thank you."

Guest calling Brittany for a room request:
"We are going to be coming out there, and we really need an accessible room because my husband is blind. Also, could it be a room with a pool view because he won't be able to do any of the activitites with us."

Guest: "So how much does the internet cost?"
Stephany: "Sir, its' complimentary"
Guest: "Ok, so how much dos it cost?"

Date 7/24/07
Guest: "Is it snowing there now?"
Jen: "It is 90 degrees here now"
Guest: "But is it snowing?"

Guest: "I heard that there are no air conditioners in Utah, is that right?"

Guest: "When do you close?"
Becca: "We don't, we are open year around!"
Guest: "So who closes the skiing?"
Becca: "The resorts do!"
Guest: "So you guys are open year around?"
Becca: "yes!"

Guest: "So how much is parking there?"
Steph: "You get 2 free parking passes."
Guest: "So how much is parking?"

Thats all I have for now. They are so stupid that they are hilarious haha! Shoot...you really wouldn't believe some of the people we deal with. I'm sortof glad I work the night usually nothing crazy happens except the occasional drunk person lol. Anyways thats it.

good news

hey guess what????

Today marks the end of my month long drivers license suspension!!!!!!!! yay :)
I'm pretty excited that I dont have to worry about being sent to jail, or being fined or being labled an illegal immigrant or whatever they do when they catch you with a suspended drivers license? I dont even know?

I was so paranoid that I would get in some type of wreck or get caught with a tail light out or something stupid and then the cops would find out...that would have been no bueno....I felt like a fugitive on the run haha.

Oh well it has taught me a lesson...that it is possible to get from point A to point B without speeding...I just might have to leave a little earlier....and I'm getting really good at spotting cop cars and I know all their hiding places, yes mr cop that likes to hide in the car wash on main street I know what your up to.

Thanks for the all the people that didn't offer me any rides anywhere! Jk i didn't really tell anyone, its kindof impractical to rely on other people for transportation, especially since I go to work at 11 at night and come back at 7 in the morning and there are just times where you really have to take your own car lol what do they expect me to do?

Anyways thats all really....

Christmas

I think its a touch bit too early to post a blog on Christmas but....oh well I can't help it
Actually I just wanted to say "a touch bit too early" in a sentence haha...

So Christmas..how wonderful is Christmas? It is the greatest of all the holidays and as far as a celebration of something goes it would be my favorite of anything on any type of calendar there is..I dont know if I can say it's my favorite time of year because I generally dislike the winter months but Christmas and winter and snow go hand in hand so its all wonderful really.

To me Christmas has changed so much from when I was a little kid. I no longer try and stay up all night to catch santa claus, and I no longer try and wake up as early as I can so I can be the first to see the presents. My thoughts are no longer full of what I'm going to be getting or what I would really like. I no longer think of Christmas as a holiday where I am able to get things for my own benefit.

Now Christmas is about me thinking of how to help others. Christmas is an oppurtunity for me to be able to show how I care about someone else, it's a chance for me to express my love and appreciation to anyone in any way that I can. Possibly my most favorite memory of a Christmas is when my family did a 12 days of Christmas for another family that was having a hard time. I remember every single night for 12 nights we left something on their door and rang the doorbell and left without them knowing it was us, we would watch them as they took whatever it was we left them and to see the smiles on their faces. It is really really great to know that you have been able to bring a smile to someones face by being unselfish and just giving a little bit of something to another person that can make them so happy, and in the end that is what makes you so happy yourself.

My ideas and thoughts have in fact completely switched as far as how I view Christmas. Once it was a holiday for myself, when really it's a holiday for everyone else. There's something a little magical about this time of year, something that needs to be recognized and shared with everyone else.

But I think the biggest difference that I've realized about Christmas is the meaning behind it. Once I never understood these meanings and the purpose, usually it's just viewed as a giant party. It actually means a lot more to me in terms of religion, and of how important it is to make someone else's life a bit brighter, and hopefully I can try and do that everyday, anywhere, anytime. Not just now.

And thats the meaning of Christmas for me. :)

feeling lucky

So a moose tried to hit me tonight lol

Maybe its not snow I need to worry about but large immobile animals randomly placed in my way...

Tonight I was driving home up provo canyon and I was in the part where there are two lanes just before where the Heber Creeper bridge used to be and I was coming up over a hill so I couldn't see what was ahead of me and all of a sudden there was this HUGE moose standing right in the middle of my lane looking right at me. His shoulders were like 3 feet taller than the top of my car and it scared me really really bad lol. I slammed on my brakes and turned to the left at the same time which caused me to skid across the empty lane and towards the steel barrier on the far left side of the lane, so then I had to turn the steering wheel all the way to the right which then caused me to flip around and then I was facing the cars that were driving behind me and all this happened in like 5 seconds. Luckily the next car behind me was about 100 feet away from me, except I got to watch it hit the moose...which for some reason had never decided to move after seeing me almost wreck trying to avoid it...

I kindof felt like one of those "professional drivers" on those car commercials about driving in the rain or trying to dodge the orange cones lol. Imagine like the craziest 5 second roller coaster ride ever. I was shaking after. I'm pretty sure I left some crazy skid marks, I think they probably look like some type of backwards question mark...I kindof want to go back and see actually...

I feel pretty lucky that there was an empty lane next to me so that I could miss the moose, actually I feel pretty lucky that I even missed the moose it really must have only been inches and my car would not be pretty after hitting a moose, I'm also pretty lucky there wasn't much traffic with me, and I'm pretty lucky that I didn't over correct and flip over or go off the right side of the road which would have meant I would have been in the Provo River.

Basically I feel lucky and I was really freaked out for a while...

Thats all...

another long blog of nothing

So I have decided I have a big problem with patience. I always want something right away instead of waiting for it to happen in the future. Even if I know that it will most likely happen in the future...I would rather have it right now so that I know I have it already, so that I can be 100% assured and not leave anything to chance. I hope that makes sense.

Maybe it's not so much of a patience thing as it is a fear of what will happen in the future. But its not like I'm afraid of the future because I always look forward to it and I think it's always exciting to see what will happen but sometimes I just don't really know what is going to happen in the future, I mean everyone has their own plan for the future and it's good to have a plan and I have my own plan but theres always an element of suprise or an unexpected twist. Of course these things are not always bad but don't you ever feel like you don't want any suprises or twists and you just want your plan to work the way you think it should?

So maybe I just have a fear of the unknown. I'm not really afraid or anything. Maybe it's just me being uncomfortable of the unknown. Maybe I just don't really know what it is lol. I've come to accept that life is all about change, but that doesn't mean that I always like it. I guess sometimes I just want things to stay the same until I can catch back up with the change. I feel like I've never been able to be comfortable long enough to take a breath before something unexpected happens.

I think that I may never really be completely satisfied with life, I mean very few people actually are anyways right? And if you are completley satisfied with life chances are you are overlooking something, unless your Jesus. I just try to do my best and do what makes me happy but every once in a while it feels like my best isn't quite going to cut it...and I guess at some point everyone's best doesnt quite cut it at something but it's sorta sad to discover that even when you try at something so hard maybe you just can't have it.

Well I just realized this blog is mostly about me asking questions to myself and then answering them....sort of...lol so maybe it was a pointless blog so what! Hannah already hogged my other topic and I think its too long to write about now...maybe it will make an appearance some other day.

I will leave you with a list of things that I think are absolutely essential to a happy life
They are not really in any order

1. My religion
2. The relationships/friendships I form with other people (includes family, friends, dogs, a deflated volleyball named wilson...anything like that)
3. A good conscience
4. Music
5. A positive attitude
6. A desire to do something
7. A willingness to learn
8. An open mind
9. The ability to recognize as well as learn from mistakes
10. Humor

This could be a big list but I like the number ten and I like those things if anyone disagrees then obviously they don't have as happy of a life as me and we will have to have a debate. :)

"There is nothing to fear except the persistent refusal to find out the truth, the persistent refusal to analyze the causes of happenings." -Dorothy Thompson

"Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death." -Anais Nin

"If I had my life to live over, I'd dare to make more mistakes next time. I'd relax; I'd limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have fewer imaginary ones.
You see, I'm one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I'd have more of them. In fact, I'd try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I've been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I have.
If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dance; I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies. "
-Nadine Stair

The End.

1/4th of a mid-life crisis

Hello dear blog readers of the universe

Well I am officially 20 years old now! It doesn't feel any different than 19 but it is a bit depressing to think that I am now halfway to 40 which means I'm halfway to being over the hill which means I'm just a 4th of the way to 80 and a 5th of a way to 100 :S *Sigh* that is depressing. Life does kindof go by pretty fast sometimes and it's true that you never really get any younger. Not that growing older is bad and I guess I'm not really old yet anyways so I dont know what I'm talking about maybe I'm going through a mid life crisis or should I say a 1/4th of a mid life crisis.

Sometimes I wish I lived in old biblical times where people regularly lived to like 823 years old and THEN they died of old age lol. But then I would probably be walking around in the wilderness and herding sheep for that long as well. Its true that the 3 people that I'm probably most jealous of ever are the 3 Nephites that were granted the ability to live until the end of the earth as well as eternal life. I think that would be really amazing. I often try to come up with ideas of where they are or who they are of if anyone has seen them lately lol. Do you think they've ever been through Heber? That would be pretty cool to know haha. I know the things I think about are kinda weird but I have a curious mind.

So I purposely didn't write about my birthday beforehand on here and I just sort of didn't tell anyone anyways because its just never been a big deal and I've just learned that no one really cares that much anyways.

Well I had 3 days off from work for my birthday which was kindof pointless because I did mostly nothing. It was nice that I didn't have to drive to work in the crazy snow storm or else I might not be living to write this pointless blog. It's nice to have work off but sometimes I guess I would just rather work because it gives me something to do and keeps me preoccupied and life is the best when your busy. (For the most part) Well I am applying at UVSC right now and I think I should get accepted but thats just what I think lol. If I do then I will probably try and find some way to move down there or maybe my financial aid can cover the cost of some type of school housing which would be nice so I dont have to focus as much on trying to earn money while trying to go to school. So I dont know but I'm looking forward to it because it will be a change, a good change and it will keep me busy and I'll feel like I'm accomplishing things.

Well I have thought of a new list to include and its a pretty rad list and of course it has to do with music :)

Whats better than a good song? A good video to go along with it!

My Top Ten Music Videos - at the moment

10. Beck- E Pro
I had to put this one on the list just because its so bizarre and abstract but its funny and maybe if you think really hard there is a lesson to be learned from it or maybe Beck was just on drugs. Either way its entertaining.

Favorite scene: When he starts running away from the weird monster thing haha he just looks retarded.

9. Eve 6-Inside Out
Sometimes I feel like the only place its raining is right above me and everyone is just staring at me from the outside.

Favorite scene: When he yells at the girl and she blows away

8. Barenaked Ladies- Pinch Me
This is just an amusing video. It kind of reminds me of when I used to work in restraunts. Sometimes life feels like your just going through the motions and everything is the same. A bit like how a fast food place can symbolize societies demand for things as fast as possible because everyone is in a hurry they dont have time to stop and wait and because of this they get crappy food that makes them fat. In between all the hurry and worry sometimes you need to stop and be original and create your own joy and just have fun. I really like the enthusiastic facial expressions and thumbs ups haha.

Favorite scene: When he falls into a huge pile of hamburger buns, which for some reason sounds really fun

7. Goo Goo Dolls- Broadway
Another video that speaks to the nature of society. All of these hard working blue collar men just want to be able to have a chance to be someone different and someone famous but it turns out being that new person is not who you really are and its not always that great.

Favorite scene: When the band sits down to eat lunch...or when the construction workers are dancing- see 2:51-2:57

6. Barenaked Ladies- If I Had A Million Dollars
I just like that this is actually not a video at all but a slideshow that just makes me laugh for no particular reason. "If I had a million dollars we wouldn't have to eat Kraft dinner, of course we would we'd just eat more and buy really expensive ketchups thats right all the fanciest dijon ketchups!" haha

Favorite scene: When the show the "nice reliable car"

5. Weezer- Island in the Sun
It would have been pretty fun to shoot this video with them. How could you not love being around all the baby animals?

Favorite scene: Any with the monkey in it

4. Jet-Shine On
I always like it when there are historical clips from the past. This song is a mixture of good things and bad things happening at once and in the end the bad things cannot prevail.

Favorite scene: The man and the tanks at Tiananmen Square

3. Lifehouse- From Where You Are
This video reminds me of all the good road trips and car rides I've had. It's just a nice video and a nice song with good memories.

Favorite scene: Probably the mustang or when the kids are rocking out and then the next minute they're dead asleep because thats pretty much how we live sometimes

2. Coldplay- Yellow
I can't even really explain to you why I like this music video because basically its the simplest video ever but its a really simple song and you can see the emotion on his face as he sings it and a song with emotion attatched to it is amazing and somehow its just wonderful.

Favorite scene: umm well its all sorta the same scene lol

1. Coldplay- The Scientist
It's a great video because its all filmed backwards and it's much more powerful backwards than it would be forwards which is odd. Haven't you ever wanted to go back and re-do something that occured to you or something that you caused to happen to someone else? Have you ever thought about how your life would have played out if you did change course, would things be different for you now if you changed something before, and if you knew how things would have changed would you have really changed them in the first place?

Favorite scene: when he is in the forest at night and the leaves are floating up

Wow that was a fantastically long blog I have a bad habit of making them huge. I apologize lol. Well I think that is enough for now :)

Travis doesn't like driving in the snow

SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It snowed tonight and I think its still snowing and now it can be more winterlike and utahlike and everyone in the hotel can finally be happy there is snow falling and they won't ask me if I'm mormon and tell me to pray about the snow lol.

So tonight I drove my car in the snow on the road for the first time and it didn't go so well lol. I could only go about 35 miles per hour before I started skidding sideways and if you have to turn the steering wheel ALL the way to the left just to make your car drive straight thats not a good sign, either your drunk or your car has a problem lol. And I stopped at a stopsign and it took me about a minute to actually start driving again. So once I start driving I need to try and keep driving or else I will probably never get started again and then I will probably be stranded in my car on some lonely stretch of road trying to survive until someone notices that Travis has disappeared lol. Apparantly the snow plows hadn't plowed the road at all though so maybe that will help if they actually start doing that hopefully. I knew this was going to be a problem and was silently thankful that there hadn't been any bad snowstorms until now..only because of me driving not because I didn't want snow. I so wish I had gotten a truck or something with four wheel drive my next car has to have four wheel drive I think. So basically after christmas is over I'm going to start wishing there was no more snow and probably will start counting down the days to SUMMER yay!

So I recieved my first birthday present already from Hannah. It was two concert tickets to motion city soundtrack, mae, and anberlin and I'm pretty excited it should be awesome even though I sortof already guessed what it was lol. :)

Well I think work is going to be really really slow which is not good I almost fell asleep last night. I think I will go make some hot chocolate and watch a movie..probably a christmas one.

take it back to the start and through the rise and falling apart we discover who we are

Hello fellow blog readers.

Today I decided to go back to church for the first time in a really long time actually. Too long of a time really. It was really really refreshing it sorta felt like I had been drowning but I was finally allowed to breath again, that sort of refreshing thank goodness feeling lol. I dont really know why I stopped going to church in the first place, well I guess there are a few small reasons but those reason shouldn't of been that big of a deal anyways. I have no family that goes to church with me so I go by myself which for me is probably the hardest part along with the fact that I hardly know anyone in my ward and I sat by my former bishop and his wife for sacrament and ms. carlile for sunday school how weird is that? And sunday school is just weird too because the average age is probably about 45 or 50 and I still feel like I should go to primary or something like that lol. Oh well I still enjoyed it and it makes me happy so I know its the right thing.

So I guess I've learned a lot about myself. Basically I can say I've experienced life without the church and life with the church. Without the church life really does feel like your drowning...very slowly almost to the point you dont even know you are and then you take a look back and it can be painful to realize how far away from the church you are. Or basically anything that applies to this idea. When you take something you love and substitute it for many other things that are a bit like false happiness and those many other things dont even fill up that one thing that you took away. It definitely leaves a void that sometimes you try and overlook. I think I have learned that its somewhat impossible for me to be content and truly happy if I start to neglect the things I care about the most. Sometimes it's hard to recognize when you may be getting ahead of yourself or you may have lost something, it's just much easier to keep a tight grip on the values that you have. This definitely makes life a lot easier.

hmm

So work was kindof crazy today. Pretty much every stupid thing you can imagine went wrong like the printer stopped working and the machine that makes the hotel keys stopped working and i burnt my oatmeal lol. Oh well its okay now.

So basically i'm pretty excited that BYU won the game. I'm just going to refer to it as The Game because its really the only game. Okay so I'll refer to it as The Only Game.

So I have included a list of 10 things that will now happen to the University of Utah

1. BYU has now won twice in a row and is actually going to win every single time now.
2. BYU will apppear to be headed toward a crushing loss with Utah scoring in the final minutes to take the lead but everytime BYU will come back and score with just a few seconds remaining to win every single game
3. Utah will be so depressed that they will eventually cancel their football program and most of the football players will transfer to Utah's great gymnastics team so they can feel like winners which is okay because BYU doesn't need to be great at gymnastics
4. The football band members from each school will feel left out and challenge each other to a "marching band duel"
5. Of course Utah will have the edge when it comes to the flashy band uniforms because of BYU's clothing policy and it would appear Utah would go away with a victory but right at the last second BYU will take the lead with a special guest appearance by Donnie Osmond
6. Utah will be desperate to start a bitter rivalry that they can actually win like starting competitive medical surgery procedures
7. BYU will retaliate with their superior accounting and business skills
8. Frustrated Utah will try and gain the support of the only people they can...the Indians...which does them no good because they won't even be able to locate the utes since they will be gone on their annual buffalo hunt. Not to say the Ute's wouldn't even care about Utah anyways since their mascot is actually a bird and an ugly one at that.
9. When that fails Utah, feeling sorry for itself that no one even cares about it, will try and succeed from the Union and create their own nation which will stupidly be called Ute Nation.
10. Of course the government will not allow that to happen and they will force Utah to accept the fact that BYU is better.

my feeble attempts at being a music critic

Hello.
So tonight hannah put her head in her hands and looked like she was thinking deeply so I asked her what she was thinking about and she said she was thinking about what I was going to do at work tonight and then she told me that I would write a blog and she proceeded to tell me what I was going to write in my blog so I guess thats what I'm going to do.

So basically me and hannah hung out tonight and we went to Park City's main street which turned out to be a pretty cool idea that I give hannah credit for. I have never even seen or been to Park City's main street so it was nice. It would have been ever more fun if there was big fluffly snowflakes falling from the sky but thats okay as long as they get here by Christmas. There were a lot of art and picture galleries which I have decided are the best types of stores to walk through. I really like looking at all the paintings and sculptures and pictures, some of them are pretty amazing. I decided that one of my fantasy jobs would be a nature or wildlife photographer because that would just be awesome to do. It turns out that these galleries are wonderful places to collect business cards, and it turns out hannah is a wonderful helper at collecting business cards and so I believe I currently have the most cards so far haha! Anyways it was really fun and we had some pretty good hot chocolate too. After that we went somewhere and listened to music and talked and drew on my windshield and I once again proved to be the best in a tickling fight. So it was a pretty fun night like always.

My top 10 favorite songs right now

1. Before It's Too Late- Goo Goo Dolls
The lyrics of the Goo Goo Dolls really should be put into some type of biblical verse

2. Better Days- Goo Goo Dolls
Once again the hopeful, soothing, and beautifully poetic lyrics of the Goo Goo Dolls make this song great. It seems few bands sing with the emotion of the Goo Goo Dolls

3. Shine On- Jet
This song provides that little ray of sunshine that even the dark clouds cannot avoid

4. The Scientist- Coldplay
Lets face it, at the moment no other band knows how to use a piano better than coldplay(possibly ben folds five but thats a stretch) Chris Martin's slow and steady lyrics add to the inquisitive and soul searching nature of this song as well as basically every other coldplay song

5. Supermans Song- Crash Test Dummies
The lyrics for all of CTD's songs have disaster written all over them but they always make it sound great. I mean honestly, is there a more touching song about superman?

6. Fall to Pieces- Velvet Revolver
A perfect song to be played when your falling to pieces. Slash is still amazing at the guitar which only accentuates the lyrics.

7. The World at Large-Modest Mouse
Isaac Brock and modest mouse's unique style of music, coupled with their strange, but compelling lyrics make this band so multi dimensional and appealing you can't help but love them. It is amusing and slightly comical to listen to Brock's unemotional voice as he sings his way through the worlds imperfections, as if he is saying oh well what can you do about it?

8. Wish You Were Here- Pink Floyd
This song is already a classic do I need to explain why? Pink Floyd's dreamy music is meshed wonderfully with simple but deep lyrics that take this song on a whole new level of thought. It's shortness adds to this songs influence.

9. The Space Between-Dave Mathews Band
A very inspirational song to me, Dave Mathews does a fantastic job of singing this song period.

10. Remember Us- Pineapple Theif
This song never gets ahead of itself, yet does just enough to not bog itself down in its epic 16 minute -mostly instrumental journey. The pace of music changes just enough to keep you with the song, and the simple lyrics are well placed.

a new poem

this is a pretty personal poem that is intentionally vague, yet it is still a way for me to release something...

Step outside into the fog of night
To learn more about what’s wrong and right
In front a path moves forward out of sight
To a place where only the angels possess a light

The path knows of its dream to me
The fog sits on the path I cannot see
Where some are content to sit and be
I change to live and be free

I take a glance back of what’s sure
Take a step forward to know what’s pure
The past once held me in its lure
But this path I take I must endure

With every step the path provides a view
Of this dream that could be so true
When angels walk forever with you
Only they know of what I knew

want to live at an airport?

I just got done watching the movie The Terminal at work and it was really a fantastic movie in my opinion and I think everyone should see it. It has some pretty funny moments too. Its about this guy who flies to the United States but when he gets to the airport he finds out his visa and documents are not valid thus preventing him from traveling into the United States but he also is not able to fly back to his country because it is in the middle of a civil war and so they tell him he needs to stay in the airport and so he basically decides to live in the airport, he makes friends with all the employees at the airport and thinks that this is his home.
The most fascinating part is that this is actually based on a true story of a man who has lived in an airport in France for over 15 years because of similiar circumstances. He was not legally allowed to go anywhere and no country would take him because he had no proof of who he was or where he came from. I guess now he is allowed to leave and go wherever he wants but he has become so used to living in the airport he now refuses to leave because he is so attached to what he's had for 15 years.

I just thought that was really crazy to think about, and a little sad.

someday when my life has passed me by i'll lay around and wonder why

Hey blog readers of the world.

How are you?

Me..? I'm great...I believe I have just met the drunkest man I will ever meet, I almost started laughing at him a couple of times.

I'm at work trying to stay awake.

The last couple of days have been good. Last night I hung out with Hannah it ended up being really great which I was very very happy about. We found a new spot that has a good view of the city and the stars and a fire hydrant. We drew graffiti all over my windshield because they did not offer us crayons when we went to go eat. I dressed up in my deviled egg costume and kindof danced and did a somersault at the duck pond. I decided I need to make up a "egg dance."

Well I'm completely bored so here comes another one of those bored blogs.
I decided I would write down my random opinions of some random topics.


EVOLUTION
-we did not evolve from apes
-we did not evolve from swimming creatures that decided to live on land
-we are considered "aliens" to other people on other planets
-if the human race lives long enough we will either develop gills, feathers, or powerful poisonious tails
-we were made with an ability to know right from wrong
-we evolve from trial and error
-their are no two people exactly alike

THE SUN
-its actually not essential for all life
-there really is a roman god that pulls it with his chariot
-it will be a sad day when it burns out
-someday NASA will send a robot to the sun
-it looks better when it sets, yet the stars and the moon are usually more beautiful

DINOSAURS
-Some person is going to do what they did in Jurassic Park and breed dinosaurs and they are going to stage a comeback and wreak havoc until another comet, volcano, ice age, and earthquake destroys them. Or they'll just contract AIDS, cancer, avion flu, or chicken pocks.
-That person will be prosecuted for the illegal reproduction of a species that was extinct
-Archeologists millions of years from now will forever be confused by the fact that dinosaurs seemed to have lived once a really really really long time ago and then they seemed to have reappeared just a really long time ago, and they will forever debate which one of the natural disasters caused their extinction, and they will be eternally puzzled by the fact that some dinosaurs seem to have chicken pocks.

RELIGION
-every religion has the fundamental ideas, values, or practices of: believing that there is a higher power, giving purpose to life, providing reasoning and understanding to things not known, establishing guidelines or rules to follow, the idea of worshipping something, ideas produced by history, written documents, or events.
-has to be something that betters ones life
-is probably the number 1 thing the world has fought over, even wars
-a very passionate subject for many
-i could not live without it, but lots of people do
-no one is truly an atheist

GOVERNMENT
-our government really doesn't tell us everything
-no government ever has
-but i wouldn't either if i were them
-its a good thing
-the U.S. has the best government anywhere and I'm glad I live here
-It should make money more exciting

LOVE
-there is no such thing as love at first sight, probably not even at second sight either. Maybe ten sights?
-love is hard to find but easy to know when you find it
-love should have the biggest and most complicated definition in the whole dictionary
-love is continually growing and evolving
-it is the most powerful feeling with ironically, hate being the next
-some people never really find absolute love, or maybe they just dont recognize it?
-a lot of people are scared of love

CHANGE
-should be one of Newton's Laws because its going to happen
-maybe you can postpone it, but you can't stop it or avoid it
-it WILL be for the better, maybe not right away but the lessons and experiences you learn from it make you a better person
-the more things change the more they stay the same


Well I think thats all really...I dont' really know what this was all about I just had to write something because I'm bored. The End.

the song of the day

so I decided I really wanted to share a song with you. I really like it because it makes me laugh because its so random and funny to listen to. Plus music is basically just the best especially when the songs mean something to you. It's kind of like its always there to speak to you and to give you things to think about, or solutions to problems. This one doesn't really mean anything to me its just funny lol. My favorite line has to be Chickity China the Chinese chicken haha it just sounds great. Or maybe the really out of place line - I have a history of taking off my shirt - haha. How do you sing these lines and actually make it sound cool? Tell me they weren't on drugs when they wrote this???


It's been one week since you looked at me
Cocked your head to the side and said "I'm angry"
Five days since you laughed at me saying
"Get that together come back and see me"
Three days since the living room
I realized it's all my fault, but couldn't tell you
Yesterday you'd forgiven me
but it'll still be two days till I say I'm sorry

Hold it now and watch the hoodwink
As I make you stop, think
You'll think you're looking at Aquaman
I summon fish to the dish, although I like the Chalet Swiss
I like the sushi
'cause it's never touched a frying pan
Hot like wasabe when I bust rhymes
Big like LeAnn Rimes
Because I'm all about value
Bert Kaempfert's got the mad hits
You try to match wits, you try to hold me but I bust through
Gonna make a break and take a fake
I'd like a stinkin achin shake
I like vanilla, it's the finest of the flavours
Gotta see the show, cause then you'll know
The vertigo is gonna grow
Cause it's so dangerous,
you'll have to sign a waiver

How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Trying hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of taking off my shirt

It's been one week since you looked at me
Threw your arms in the air
and said "You're crazy"
Five days since you tackled me
I've still got the rug burns on both my knees
It's been three days since the afternoon
You realized it's not my fault
not a moment too soon
Yesterday you'd forgiven me
And now I sit back and wait til you say you're sorry

Chickity China the Chinese chicken
You have a drumstick and your brain stops tickin'
Watchin' X-Files with no lights on
We're dans la maison
I hope the Smoking Man's in this one
Like Harrison Ford I'm getting frantic
Like Sting I'm tantric
Like Snickers, guaranteed to satisfy

Like Kurasawa I make mad films
Okay, I don't make films
But if I did they'd have a Samurai
Gonna get a set a' better clubs
Gonna find the kind with tiny nubs
Just so my irons aren't always flying off the back-swing
Gotta get in tune with Sailor Moon
'Cause the cartoon has got the boom anime babes
That make me think the wrong thing

How can I help it if I think you're funny when you're mad
Tryin' hard not to smile though I feel bad
I'm the kind of guy who laughs at a funeral
Can't understand what I mean?
Well, you soon will
I have a tendency to wear my mind on my sleeve
I have a history of losing my shirt

It's been one week since you looked at me
Dropped your arms to your sides
and said "I'm sorry"
Five days since I laughed at you and said
"You just did just what I thought you were gonna do"
Three days since the living room
We realized we're both to blame,
but what could we do?
Yesterday you just smiled at me
Cause it'll still be two days till we say we're sorry

It'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
It'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
Birchmount Stadium, home of the Robbie

-One Week, The Barenaked Ladies

ps...

I think I have found one of the best openings ever to a song so far...well basically the whole song is pretty great and it means a little something to me...

-I wandered through fiction to look for the truth
buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance to feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes..."

Name that song? No cheating

a blog about nature, actions,consequences, and explosions

Hey I thought I would just blog to the 2 or 3 people that actually read my blogs (including me)So I dont really know what to write about right now but Hannah says to write something amazing, I dont think she realizes that I've never written an amazing blog before.
So basically my life is pretty fantastically boring and somewhat pointless at the moment. I dont really feel like I'm being very productive. I'm not sure what is making me feel this way. Sometimes you just feel like your stuck in a rut and you just follow the rut wherever the rut takes you, and wherever it has taken everyone else that has followed that same rut. I sorta feel like a salmon trying to swim upstream against the current. Haha would you like any other nature similes?? Ok one more, I feel like a tree thats surrounded by other bigger better trees and they're getting more sunlight and more birds in their branches...haha actually that was kindof a good one...
I know this is only a temporary feeling and that things get better, I guess sometimes they just get worse first. Life is a funny unpredictable thing, always in a state of change and never allowing you to sit and be content. I guess everything needs to be acted upon to recieve a result. The best part is sometimes you don't even like the result you get, but you still get it anyways and then its time to work again on another result.
Life is a series of actions and consequences. Each action lights the fuse of an explosive that we shall name Consequence. Someimes these fuses don't blow up right away, sometimes they blow up too fast and take your hand off. Sometimes your consequence will blow someone else up. You never know when the explosive consequence will blow up, but it always will. But you see, everything everyone does is an action so we can't really prevent these explosions. Of course not every explosion is bad like not every consequence is bad. I guess it's a very effective way for God to teach us lessons. Unless you don't listen to the lesson then your srewed.
I guess you never know how life will develop. It sure doesn't develop as easy as a poloroid. It seems there is always a fog settled on the path of life that is never completely lifted. There are usually no bright lights telling you where to go or what to do, there are no concrete barriers to prevent you from walking off the fog enshrouded cliff of death or at least mortal misery. Life is a ride, a journey, an experience, to a destination that everyone is seeking. You just hope you do what is right and if you can do what is right then you most certainly will enjoy the ride, and even better the destination.

Well Tyler has once be known to comment on how I take everything and apply it to "the big picture" which I guess I do. I told myself I wasn't going to take something small and blow it up into another discussion of life but..yep..i did. Hey, I guess everything can be related to life right?

Well thats all really until next time make sure to tune in to Doc. Travis Psychotic Physciatrist of Life! :)

happy thoughts

Thank you for:

Homecoming night

Looking at the stars with me

Trying to get a duck to catch your bread

Not thinking I was boring lol

Liking the same music as me :)

Swinging on the swings and sliding down the slides

Laying on the grass with me at the park

Letting me throw your flip flops everywhere

Drawing pictures with me at Teutenhannanahnahanah (lol?)

Your chlorine bracelet that is tied around your ring

Watching my fish

Visiting me at crazy times

Scratching my back

Sitting with me at the Spotted Turtle

Showing me the happy clappy lol

Sending me texts at work in the middle of the night

Letting me be around your friends

Letting me get to know you

Making me believe in myself a little bit more

Working at Swiss Days because I saw you there and then I thought I should get to know you better

Making everything so simple yet so special

And a million small things that would just sound cheesy if I wrote them

Standing up for whats right

Being yourself

Being open to me

Being there

Understanding me

And whatever comes next

"yesterday love was such an easy game to play"

You know how things can seem pretty much perfect in your life one minute but it can all change in the next minute? You know the feeling you get in your gut when you know something is wrong and then your proven right? You know when you start to believe in something and then it stops, and the incredible ironic feeling you get when you realize things can stop so easily? You know how life seems to be moving so fast around you yet you become still and trapped. Like life was timeless and priceless for one moment and the next it's like your in the eye of a hurricane and your rendered useless and grounded to one spot because you fear to step back out.

Well I have finally produced a poem at work unfortunately its not really the kind of poem I had in mind and I would't really share it to the whole world yet my blog has become something of an escape to me that I seemingly cannot find elsewhere.

I had found someone

that I have just lost.

I had given a part of myself to someone

and of that I demanded no cost.

For one month and a half

Just getting started but never was finished,

too little of time to have a regret.

Another oppurtunity to be missed.

Just long enough to look back and laugh,

not long enough to let it all pass.

When can things stop long enough for me to hold,

everything just out of my reach and everyone walking away.

When everything drops and faces turn away with blank stares so cold,

with no look back, and not a thought to stay.

How do you ever make something last?

When all things flee from view,

and I'm just dancing on memories from a buried past?

Still searching for one path to stay true.

I had found someone that I just have lost.

"but its not so bad your only the best I ever had"

technology

isn't weird how a bunch of plastic and silicon and metal could be put together in such a way that if you run electricity through it, it would turn into a computer and I could write this for you to read?

wow

what will they come up with next
?

when the mind passes beyond the realms of normal boredom you get this...

Well tonight is quite a boring night at the Marriotts Mountainside hotel. Even the drunk European guys that have been staying here all last week aren't even drunk anymore. They must think its boring too.

Well today was payday and I guess thats the reason why you work right? To earn money... I just answered my own question yay. I wonder, when the people invented "money," that they took into consideration how controlling of an item such a thing would be. I wonder if they ever knew the impact something like currency would have on a world. Better yet, the impact it would have on individuals and the kind of jealousy and greed and envy it would create. I wonder if they ever thought of me, sitting all alone in a very expansive hotel, bored out of my mind, in the middle of the night when all normal people are sleeping just to earn the stupid "money" that someone or some group of people invented. Did they ever?

Its almost enough to make me go hippy and try and live off of the peaceful land but of course then I would have to probably run around naked and sleep in a tree house, that was actually a bus stuck in a tree...Hmmm nevermind.

Its almost enough to make me go Indian so I could go to rendevous and trade "goods" but then I would have to sit cross legged all the time and end up smoking weird things I've never heard of which would probably cause me to envision weird things which may lead to a tragic death or something I might regret.

Well I guess work isn't all about money. Its really more about the experience and connections that you CAN make. Not that you will ALWAYS make them. Emphasis on CAN and ALWAYS. Haha I just like to capitalize them...jk...Meaning they are there for you to initiate but you may not always act upon them.

Oppurtunities and gifts are given to us on a daily basis, probably hundreds of times a day but we probably don't even take advantage of half of the things we could. Every time someone starts something new, or even gets up for the day they have choices to make and paths to follow. It's like one of those books where it says: If you open the closed door go to page 154, If you keep following the dark road turn to page 178. A choice leads to another choice which leads to another so on blah blah...and each choice may or may not indirectly affect the next choice and may or may not affect somebody elses choice. It's like everyone creates their own little isolated web of choices, with each choice branching out into a new path with a new choice that starts a new branch or piece of the web. And then take your little web of choices and put it with everyone elses and zoom out and that little web of choices is lost in a gigantic maze of paths. This maze includes many many dead ends that many many other people have already experienced. Take something as simple and linear as you and your choices, alone it is a simple thing and an easy idea to understand, but when you take your choices and intertwine them with everyone elses the connections and consequences are endless, and completely mind boggling. It's fascinating to think about the simple yet complex forms of life itself. That somehow we are here for ourselves and in control of one thing only and thats us, except are we really here only for us? Do we really only control ourselves? And this giant web of lifes paths criss crosses and tracks over other peoples paths and at that particular intersection where two different paths have crossed is where two lives meet each other. Sometimes these intersections are friendly, meaningful, informative. Sometimes they are full of hate and bitterness, and sometimes they mean completly nothing to both individuals because they didn't actually take the time to get to know whovever they encountered. But other times they can drastically change and alter lives. These are the times when people form a real connection, the times when two people share the best of themselves with each other and work for the good of each other. These are the times when its just you and that other person and two different lives that were so opposite yet so similar. These are the times when you can stop a moment and breath and feel confident in the path you are on.

They are the times that just make you smile.

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I had five bowls of cereal today.

apparantly I am worth $2,557,240

Hello blog. I have just gotten through all my reports at work in record time! Wahoo.

So Hannah has officially got me hooked to lists and I'm at this website with really weird lists and I thought I would share one or two... this one is not really a list but its funny...

EXPRESSIONS FOR VEGANS:

Let's talk tofurkey.
We had a whale of a time, unless that particular whale happens to be getting illegally harpooned by a boatload of murderous Japanese fishermen. If that's the case, then we just had fun—as much fun as civilized people can have with all the killing going on.
It's a dog-eat-soy-based-food-substance-shaped-into-the-form-of-a-dog world.
Holy cow. Seriously, they're deities.
Running around like a chicken with its head full of hope and possibilities now that everyone has become a vegan.
So hungry I could eat a horse. What? Sometimes I just crave a burger. Is that so unforgivable?

ALTERNATE FAIRY TALE ENDINGS TO TAKE THE PLACE OF "AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER"

And they barely tolerated each other.

And they stayed together because of the kids.

And their contempt for one another occasionally spilled over at family gatherings, prompting moments of uncomfortable silence.

And they expressed their unhappiness through passive-aggressive toilet-seat positioning.

haha k one more for now...

BAND NAMES REJECTED BY THE SMASHING PUMPKINS

Eating Candy
Wearing Costumes
Carving Pumpkins
Smashing Mailboxes
Egging Houses
TP'ing Front Yards
Drinking Schnapps
Razorblading Snickers
Shitbombing Principal Reynolds' Beemer
Riding in Squad Cars
Calling Stepdad for Bail
Doing Community Service

haha

Well I think thats all really I dont have much to say thanks for reading this and letting me waste 2 minutes of your time :)

-oh and I found out that I am worth 2,557,240 dollars on the website HumanForSale.com

if the moon had to runaway, and all the stars didn't want to play, don't waste the sun on a rainy day. The wind will soon blow it all away.

Hello. It is 1:11 in the morning... haha I guess that qualifies as it's morning?

No...I am not having trouble sleeping. I'm just at work wishing I was sleeping mmm.zzzz.mmm. Actually I have David the Ent here with me and I guess I'm supposed to be training him still and so I'm sorta letting him do the reports but he's almost done and I haven't really had to help him because he's just got mad ent skills and I think he can pick up giant rocks and throw them into castles.

Anyways I'm definitely going to copy a Hannah list now. It is the list of the top 10 favorite things to eat. Its a pretty good list because like music, and sleep, and friends, and warm fuzzy blankets, and sunsets and sunrises, food is just something that just goes with life. So here is my list it's probably not in order of best and its just the things that I think of off the top of my head right now in the dead of night.

1. French Toast
2. Spaghetti
3. Warm Cookies
4. Cereal (yeah i said cereal)
5. Hot chocolate in the cold
6. Fruit :)
7. Steak
8. Chips and Salsa
9. Brownies
10. Pie

Now I'm pretty hungry. Howcome I never bring any food with me to eat? Actually I brought a hot tamale the other day that Hannah brought to me it was pretty great and I had never had them before and I was a little skeptical of it lol. Well work is really slow, its almost too slow. If you have ever read The Shining this kindof feels like that lol. But I guess I would rather have it be slow than busy or hectic and stressful. And today is payday yay! Its the first time I've gotten paid in like a month or maybe even two...That will be nice because its kind of hard to live forever without money lol although I tried...

Anyways life has still been going great for the most part. I'm trying to get used to Tyler being gone. Well hes not really gone just down in Orem but in some ways he is gone. I've been down to visit him quite a few times but I guess things just aren't quite the way they used to be when we could hang out around heber and I would always be over at his house or we would go get something to eat or go talk. I guess things are changing and I've always thought change is a good thing though. It seems to be getting harder and harder to be around Dylon too he seems to be anchored down by his girlfriend and at times its very frustrating. They are really some of my only friends left around here because everyone my age has left to college and gone. Plus my friends are more like my family just because I've never had the type of family I could hold on to..except for my Grandma. I think I can be loyal to friendships almost to a fault. Sometimes it feels like I hold on to things so hard that I end up shattering them. Its a bit depressing if I think about it too much. I guess I just can never see the outcome of the changes around me and thats always a little unsettling but who knows what will happen next in life anyways? Hannah and I are doing great and our new relationship has been something for me to hold to and is definitely a bright spot in a tunnel that can get pretty dark. When I spend time with her time could stand still and I could care less about anything other than that moment. Speaking of who knows what will happen next I would have never thought a couple of weeks ago we would be even remotely as close as we are but I think its pretty awesome.

Well there I went and over analyzed every little thing again lol sorry that whole paragraph was semi-depressing but all in all things are great because I know things work out for the good of everyone involved and sometimes you have to take it easy and let life put you where it needs you. Not that you should just roll over and let things push you around but you have to know when to let the current take you instead of fighting to swim against it. Oh wow what a philosophical Travis quote lol. I dont even know what I'm talking about anymore uhhhh I'm tired. Okay well anyways I'm done :)

a blog of an ironic paradox

So tonight makes the second night at work that has been really stressful. Last night at work I didn't have a password or login assigned to me by my manager to get into the computers that I need to get into so I had to call this Marriott support number that would assign me a password and the number started like 1-800 but on these stupid phones you have to dial 9 and then 1 and then the number if it is an outside number so basically I ended up dialing 9-1-1 to begin with and everyone knows what happens if you dial 9-1-1 So basically the police were sent to the building and my supervisor had to tell them that I had just dialed the wrong number and then to make matters worse I ended up dialing 911 two more times in a row and I had to tell them sorry it was an accident lol ahhhhh! That was a little embarassing and frustrating. And I never did get my login and password that I really need.

Then I had a very angry guy, who seemed very drunk as well. He called down from his room at like 3 in the morning and demanded that I have a cab waiting for him outside in 2 minutes, which is very impossible to do and I told him that I didn't have a number to call but I would look in the phone book and so he started cussing and telling me I better find a number or else he was coming behind the desk when he got down here so I had to call the security guard over and have him "protect me" lol By the time the guy came down I hadn't been able to get ahold of any taxi cab service that operated at 3 in the morning and of course the guy was furious and wanted to know where the manager or anybody was and I told him I was the only one here and he didn't believe me. So finally after about 15 minutes I got a taxi cab that was still working and he calmed down a little bit and left.

Then today I had a lady come in at like 1 in the morning and she was not a very happy lady. Probably because she was checking into a hotel at 1 in the morning or maybe her feet itched or maybe her dog died last night or I dont know but she was my very first ever check in and so I got everything ready and I went to make her keys except guess what? I haven't been given a password or login to the thing that makes the keys and I had to call and wake one of my co-workers up which really made me feel bad and it took like 15 minutes and she was really really pissed off and I told her I was sorry and that I was new and it wasn't my fault I just wasn't given a password to make her keys but she wasn't convinced and really angry.

And I think the fun has just begun because skiing season is around the corner and so is the Sundance Film Festival and I've heard stories about it being really bad during those times so I hope things can go smoothly by then.

I dont understand what makes people so angry all the time. Sure its fine to be angry once in a while and maybe its ok for certain situations but it really gets me when people are just brashly rude to people that have nothing to do with the reason they are angry. Everyone really should be a little more understanding towards each other I think it goes a long way to maybe try and connect with other people instead of brush them off your shoulder and act like your the only one that needs things. This kind of reminds me a book me and Hannah read in the book store called There's Even Hope for the Flowers....or something like that lol. It's about all these caterpillars who don't realize the purpose of life and they dont realize that they are capable of flying and enjoying something so much better so what they do is climb on top of each other and make huge towers and each one has a desire to get to the top and they step literally and figuratively step on each other to get to the top. They dont know why the want to get to the top, it just seems to be what everyone else wants to do so they want to as well. And when they get to the top they see other huge towers made by other caterpillars exactly like them, they also see a few butterflies that are flying around freely and they are jealous of them, and some get thrown off the top by others that are trying to get to the top themselves. Its just a childrens book but it is definitely very symbolic of human society and the idea that humans and their false ideas and false glorifications are their own greatest enemy, their own greatest obstacle, their own greatest challenge. Not just to themselves but to others as well. Sometimes we do stupid things just because everyone else is doing these same things and we dont really know why and after a while maybe we are even doing it subconciously without knowing reason and consequence. On the flip side humans and their ideas can lead to such great things, things that can counter the destructive nature that some people have just like the caterpillars that were capable of learning how to fly. Humans can do the same thing and can literally set themselves free of such confusion and twisted thinking. In a way it is important to set yourself apart from the crowd and take a look around and know what it is your doing, and what you want. And then help others in search of something good.

Another example of this is a movie I once saw that was made in like 1970 when computers were coming out and they had just gone to space and stuff. Basically it was a sci-fi movie about this human made supercomputer that was so powerful that it could think and reason and learn from mistakes just like a normal human could. Well they put this computer in charge of this shuttle that was going to Mars and it had like 6 guys on the shuttle too but they weren't very well trained because everyone figured the computer was going to do it all and it did for a while but something happened and the computer began to think on its own and it began to use its inherited human ability for itself. These basic principles of thinking and reasoning and judging and favoritism and love and hate were put into the computer by humans for a good intent. But the computer turned on them and started thinking for itself and ultimately killed everyone on the shuttle. Everyone else thought it was just a normal movie but it really made me think about how humans can be their own cause of destruction....and then I thought but they can also be their own greatest cause of success. It is definitely one of the most ironic paradoxes of life.

THE LIST

Greetings!

I come to you from work...again.

I don't think I have too much to actually tell you I'm just bored thats all.
Actually I think I will post my life list of things to do...It's pretty self explainatory its a huge list of things that I would like to do before I die and some of them I have actually already done. Actually me,dylon, and tyler came up with the list but 90 percent of the ideas were mine. And the actual idea of the list was mine as well. And Tyler doesn't even really acknowledge the list anymore. Some of the things are big and may never get accomplished, while others are rather small and probably insignificant, but all of them are things that would be fun to say I did that. (at least I think..)

this list is subject to frequent change....

COLLECTIONS

-Collect 1,000 different business cards
-Collect 1,000 different fortunes
-Get a famous persons autograph
-Collect 100 girls phone numbers
-Save 1,000 dollars worth of change

SPORTS/GAMES

-Win Catan 3 times in a row
-Metropolize in all 3 catagories in one game
-Win tip in 21-0
-Play a PS3 game-done
-Get 100 percent completion in GTA
-Solve a rubix cube
-Win a fantasy sports league
-Pitch a perfect game (baseball video game)
-Earn 20 free games for red pin bowling
-Bowl a perfect game
-Bowl a score of 250 or more
-Bowl a score of 200 or more
-Get 3 birdies in a row in golf
-Get an eagle
-Chip in a shot from the bunker
-Chip in a shot from outside the green
-Play a round of golf without losing the ball
-Score par or under - 9 holes
-Score par or under - 18 holes
-Go golfing in 3 different states
-Get 5 hole in ones in miniature golf
-Go night golfing
-Win 50 dollars worth of sports bets
-Go to a NASCAR race
-Go to a college football game
-Go to an NCAA tournament game
-Go to a World Series game
-Go to an NFL game
-Go to an NBA game besides the Jazz
-Attend an NFL playoff or Superbowl game
-Attend an NBA playoff or Finals game
-Go to an Olympic event
-Win a monopoly game
-Make 15 straight 3 pointers
-Make 10 straight 3 pointers with the left hand
-Make 90/100 free throws

TRAVEL
-Go to 2 different countries
-Go on an extended roadtrip
-Go river rafting
-Go scuba diving
-Visit the east coast-done
-Visit the west coast
-Sneak across the boarder of Mexico dressed like Mexicans
-Go on a cruise
-Visit 5 casinos in Vegas
-Visit the statue of liberty
-Follow a cop car for 5 miles
-Visit the White House
-See ten things that qualify as the worlds largest or smallest
-Go to a magic show
-Go to a comedy show
-Go to Times Square
-Go to an island
-Visit 10 different states
-Get a dumb and dumber vehicle and drive around
-Go to 10 different roller coaster parks
-Goon the catapult at lagoon
-Ride the Heber Creeper
-Ride an underground subway
-Go on a hot air balloon ride
-Ride jet skis
-Fly in a helicopter
-Float from Jordanell to the Provo River
-Go to 10 concerts
-Ride in a limo
-Go to Funky town
-Go to Denny’s at 4 am -done
-Go to a Hard Rock Café
-Go to a Hooters
-Go to a Monk Monastery
-Climb a mountain
-Watch a sunset/sunrise from a mountain top
-Go on an extensive bike trip
-Go on a 2 mile hike or longer
-Go to a really big zoo


OTHER
-Shave legs before graduation -done
-Graduate from high school -done
-Go to college
-Contact the pope, or secretary or whoever is in charge
-Conact the President, Vice President, or whoever is next in line that we can contact
-But a lottery ticket
-Buy something on eBay -done
-Get a bobble head doll of yourself
-Taser somebody
-Get pulled over 5 times in a row without getting a ticket
-Talk to a hippie
-Talk to a monk
-Talk to an Indian
-Talk to an amish person
-Apply for a National television reality show or game
-Own a piece of undeveloped real estate
-Write an incomprehensible sentence in a will
-Hold a funeral service for a dead something
-Write a riddle in a bottle and throw it in the ocean, then write the answer in a balloon and let it fly away
-Make a music video
-Make a video
-Take that dumb bible that every hotel room has
-Spend the night at a 5 star hotel
-Spend the night in a tree house
-Sleep in a hammock outside
-Persuade Bill Gates to give us a dollar
-Build something useful out of wood
-Reenact the Civil War in a park
-Ride the worlds fastest and tallest roller coaster
-Shoot a deer
-Shoot a bird
-Hit a bird with your car -done
-Catch a fish longer than your arm
-Catch a fish or something alive in the ocean
-Play a banjo for an amish person
-Pee on a monument
-Pee off a bridge
-Spend a day dressed up as rednecks
-Spend a day dressed up as nerds
-Touch a stranger and say tag your it no touch backs and run away
-Teach Darvy something smart -done
-Cook something on the grillsin the park
-Eat a whole medium pizza yourself
-Throw a boomerang and scream like an Aussie
-Egg someomes something
-Make a birthday cake
-Eat at the olive garden -done
-Get a 1,000 dollar paycheck (after taxes) -done
-Get a 2,000 dollar paycheck (after taxes)
-Enter 10,000 worth of money at http://www.wheresgeorge.com/
-Receive 1,000 hits on http://www.wheresgeorge.com/
-Throw something off a roof
-Show billy our carburators -done
-Put a hot dog on Billys antenna -done
-Throw a hockey puck across the Canadian border
-Build an igloo
-Go to 10 concerts
-Smash something cool
-Catch a fly and tear its wings off -done
-Catch a fly, then put in a jar and stick in the fridge then tie the fly to the end of a thread and hold the other end of the thread and watch it fly around
-Shoot a machine gun
-Sit at a bus stop and tell your life story like forrest gump
-Have a meaningless conversation with someone you don’t know
-Hide a walkie talkie somewhere and talk to people
-Tip over a porta potty
-Tip over a cow
-Plant a tree somewhere in a random place
-Bury a time capsule in a weird place
-Leave a bucket of chicken on Cornel Sanders grave
-Find out who owns the Hogle Zoo
-Steal a road sign
-Build a burrito or a hamburger one item at a time by going through individual drive throughs
-Tan something on your body
-Build something out of toothpicks
-Drop an egg off a roof without it cracking
-Visit a museum
-Gut a fish
-Catch a wild animal (or a semi-wild animal)
-Cook something on a camp fire
-Sleep in a self made shelter
-Get a sailor to swear at you
-Get a college degree
-Have a dream that involves chasing something, food, and two tragic deaths
-Put out a fire with a fire extinguisher
-Put out a fire with something other than water or a fire extinguisher
-Cook an egg on a rock outside
-Make out in a car wash
-Eat a bowl of cereal made with one piece of as many cereals as it takes to fill up the bowl
-Go sledding down the hill that’s in the middle of deer creek
-Write a song
-Convince someone your suicidal
-Have a huge food fight
-Buy a stock in the stock market
-Be in a mosh pit
-Build a fire without matches
-Sing a song around a campfire
-Make a wish on a shooting star and have it come true
-Make a “boat “ and see if it floats
-Play frisbee at night
-Ride a tandem bike
-Try to break a world record
-Acquire an unusual accent for a whole day
-Be on tv or radio
-Peel a banana with your feet
-Write a letter to a jail cell number at a local jail
-Write a well written but extremely confusing complaint letter to a company
-Burn something with a magnifying glass
-Throw a tomato in a fan
-Slide down a hill or a big stairway in a laundry basket
-Stand on your neighboorhood corner and try to hitchhike home
-Go to a fancy restraunt in your pajamas
-Buy something from a yardsale
-Randomly pick out a library cookbook and cook recipe number 25
-Pick out the 7th restraunt in the yellow pages and eat the seventh course on the menu

and that my friends is the list...so far...there will definitely be even more things to add because well...life is full of things to do right? I guess its kind of a small way to show all the possibilities of life and that you really can do anything you ever wanted to do in life no matter how big or how small the task is. Plus all these things help create memories and and life needs to be full of funny, great, and wonderful memories.

Uhhhhhhhhghhhphhhhhfff

Oh my.

My first ever shift by myself as a night auditor. And they still haven't given me a name badge...Or let me know where the clock in punch card thingy is...And apparantly I dont know where the ice machines are located...And I have a whole room full of teenagers mad at me because Dominos doesn't deliver at 2 in the morning...My fault?? They think so...

I am finally done with all the reports that I needed to print off so basically I am pretty much done with my job except for the wake up calls and other little things. And what time is it---- 2:44 wow that means it took me four hours and forty four minutes thats pretty long. I definitely had my fair share of difficulties and I think I called for assistance somewhere around 15 times...but it was to the other night auditor at the other Marriott so I dont feel so bad because he was already awake and stuff and he told me I could call him and he's really smart and wears glasses and he reminds me of Nathan Baum and I think he has OCD which makes me laugh and this sentence is a really big run-on. I'm pretty sure I didn't get everything exactly correct and I'm sure they'll notice in the morning but hey I'm off work tomorrow so that might save me from hearing about it..maybe.
And I just got done talking to a guy who was furious that I couldn't have a taxi cab waiting for him outside in two minutes and he asked to speak to the manager on duty and I'm like I'm the only one here and he didnt' believe me but then I'm like no I'm serious and he was pretty mad and said that he was having a horrible birthday party and he hated his friends haha hmmm great.

So i've decided I really like Hannah's idea of top 10 concerts to go and see so I'm pretty much going to make my own right now :)

These are in no particular order either...

1. Coldplay
2. Death Cab for Cutie
3. The Goo Goo Dolls
4. Jimmy Eat World
5. Lifehouse
6. Modest Mouse
7. Pearl Jam
8. Red Hot Chili Peppers
9. Collective Soul
10. Snow Patrol

Yah...so I'm pretty lame and none of those have happened yet but someday hopefully when I become unlame they will.

Umm anyways I think thats all for now. Adios.

If I had the ears of an elf I could see all the way to Salt Lake

Heelllllllllllllllllllooooooooooooo.

I am at work.

What are you doing?

Thats great.

Work has gone pretty good today. There was a new kid that for some reason I was training...Do they really think that I am already qualified to train someone already? Well this kid was very unusually disproportioned he kind of reminds me of an ent in Lord of the Rings so I think that is what I am going to call him...Ent...It feels so weird being at the Front Desk of a place with like probably about 500 people sleeping in rooms all around me yet I only see about 5 people every night. Kinda strange. I can almost feel their dreams floating around the hotel, maybe my actual job title is Dream Catcher? I sit at the gateway to peoples dreams and they check in and check out whenever they please and they dream whatever they want and I allow their dreams to be dreamt. Anyways the peace and quite is usually very peaceful and actually pretty quite! Although no poems have entered my mind yet. Nor have I started pacing around the lobby yet and I haven't even dozed off once yet. These are all things that I may be doing sooner or later... So far it has definitely been a pretty easy going job and thats not a bad thing. Hopefully I will catch on pretty quickly and things will go well.

And things are going pretty well in my life I believe. Of course not everything is perfect but when is it? Perfection is always a work in progress I guess. But things are definitely good I would say. The other night me and Hannah went out to eat and I think I broke all the crayons at our table. After that we went to the cemetery to look at an old gravestone that I had to show her for some reason lol then it started raining and we went to the duck pond...I dont really know why...just the see if the ducks were ok I guess and it was still raining lighty and even though it was cold and really dark and we probably looked like idiots it was still really fun. Most of our time spent together has been simple things like laying in the park and stuff but its always perfect and really enjoyable and thats the best part and those are the things that definitely make life great. They are the moments and times that stay in our minds forever. Somehow they are more enjoyable and they are who we really are. And hopefully they always will be...

-trav

good morning

Hello I'm at work again.

First I think I should apologize for my last blog I published I'm sure it kinda made people a little worried about me but dont worry I'm just trying to learn how to live at night without going delirious. Although Hannah did say it was entertaining. Today work has gone much better I think it has to do with the person I am training with. The guy I was training with before was really cool but he didn't explain anything to me and although I could see what he was doing I didn't know the purpose behind it so therefore I didn't understand why I needed to do the things I needed to do and everyone likes to know why they do what they do right? Because thats what life is all about in one sentence :) The girl that is training me today actually explained to me what each report means and why I print them off. So I can now connect the dots a little bit better...Thats good because my level of anxiety was growing just a bit...Anyways now I feel confident I can handle the shift on my own but that won't happen until sometime next week so thats okay too, plus I think I have the next two days off!! :) ....So I can actually sleep during normal sleeping hours me thinks.

Other than that I dont know what else to write. Things are still going pretty smooth in my life. (knock on wood) I went to the park today with Hannah after she got out of school it was really good. The park may be my new favorite place in Heber. My car has been in and out of the shop nearly every day for about two weeks and even a couple weeks worth before that and they said the problem was supposed to finally be fixed but lo and behold its not....SIGH....I'm kinda frustrated about that. The good thing is I go to work in the dead of night so if my car really has to be in the shop for that long I can take it for the night to go to work and I dont really need to use it much during the day so maybe they could actually get to work on it. Me and Dylon have gone over to the other side of the mountain a couple times to visit Tyler and things seem to be going well with that. And I have to get back to some work now so thats about all.
Goodbye!

or in the words of Hannah
"goodmuch much lots!"

blog no. 50

Well hello and good morning. Buenos dias. goedemorgen. bonjour. guten Morgen.

Yes it is very early in the morning and I just wanted to say good morning you know or is there a certain name for this time of day, like the twilight zone or something? Anyways...

Yep...I am at work.
-with nothing to do
-and i'm insanely bored
-I want to start randomly texting people
-but that would be quite rude of me
-because everyone in america is asleep except for me
- and the security guard -wait he's asleep too....

Work has been going pretty good though.
-And I dont mind the graveyard shift that much so far
-I have met most of the people they seem pretty great
-They all seem to be in their late 20's or 30's kinda makes me feel too young
-Especially for the night auditor position which is actually a very important job...
-It is a very good working environment and thats a good thing
-I like working with computers and thats what we do during the graveyard shift.
-Sometimes drunk people wander in through the doors at peculiar times.


So this is my 5oth blog yay!.
-I should throw a party
-with the security guard....
-There will be a disco ball and dancing
-And a blog-a-thon with food
-we will play games and sing
-and take over the pool area
-maybe i should wake him up first though...
-I hope no one comes to rob me he doesn't look very protective
-But then I could invite the robber to the party
-And maybe he/she would have a change of heart
-And realize that robbing is not the right way to make a living
-And I could potentially influence this robbers life for the better
-wow...i dont know how I started talking about that lol

I wonder if I will ever have a 50th wedding anniversary?
-I think that would be pretty cool
-it would definitely deserve a very big cake
-and a lot of dedication to my wife
-and vice versa

I dont really know what I'm talking about.
-I'm kinda tired
- and bored
-as you can probably see
-I chugged about 3 red bulls just barely
-It gave me wings

When I get this bored my mind starts thinking about bizarre things.
-Usually about life and its complexities (spelling?)
-About fate and chance, decisions and consequences
-Moments of inspiration and points of change
-Mans inherit ability to do good as well as bad
-Sounds dorky but its interesting to me but then I over analyze everything
-And then it gives me a headache and its no fun

I think a few poems are going to come from these nights...
-So be prepared
-Thats the boy scout motto
-maybe a few...shall I say...weird blogs too? I dunno just a guess...

Anyways...

Ummmmm.
-did anyone read that anyways
-haha
:)

:)

Guess what? I just got a phone call from the Marriot saying that I was hired for their night auditor position yes! I had a feeling I would get hired because my job interview went pretty well. So my rather boring unemployment time is about to come to an end and I'm pretty excited to be going back to work. Just because it gives me something to do I guess. Plus I know I will be making money and I definitely need to start making money again and hopefully I can save up as much as I had when I was working construction but thats really hard to do since construction paid a lot more. But I found out it is really nice when you actually have money saved up. My job as a night auditor means I will be working graveyard shifts so pretty much all throughout the night but that might actually be a good thing because that means I have like the whole day off of course I will probably sleep for a lot of the day though...It will be interesting at least. I dont really know a lot about the job description but she said I manage the front desk for the whole night and that it's just basically me and the security guard managing the whole front of the building haha which is laughable and a little intimidating but she told me it was a good job to have if I was looking to gain leadership and management experience which is definitely a plus.

So the rest of this day is probably going to be pretty boring and uneventful. I had to take my car into the shop again...this is about the 4th or 5th time in the past couple of months. My engine keeps stalling on me and its kinda scary especially if it happens in the middle of an intersection or on the highway....hopefully they will fix it this time because I'm going to need it to be good to drive to Park City for work..

I just recently learned that Tyler had quit the construction job to and that he was in the process of moving to Orem. I have spent the last weekend helping him move and he is successfully moved down there I guess. I must admit it is pretty weird not having him around in Heber. I've guess I've gotten used to it these past 5 years and it was a bit of a shock to have him just say one day "i'm moving to orem." I always thought that when we graduated high school me and Dylon and Tyler were going to move out together and go to school and be as close as we were in high school but I guess things get changed and plans get reworked and moments get spoiled and oppurtunities may be wasted. I dont really know I'm happy for him though and he seems to be happy and so maybe its just time to start working on our own lives.

Other than that things have been going pretty smooth in my life for now. I'm glad my job hunt is over with -at least I believe so. I'm relieved that I will start earning money again. I'm definitely happy to be doing something more productive than what I have been doing lately. I feel more optimistic about the future than I have in a while...I dont know why but I do..Things with Hannah are going good and that makes me happy...my dog is still as loveable as ever...My grandma is still the best ever...I make really good pinneaple upside down cake-or shall I say pinneaple right side up cake cuz I never turned it upside down...I still enjoy the simple things in life more than anything...i still haven't gotten a traffic violation yet....and tomorrow is always a new day right?

Oh bloggy

Well I have become convinced that it is much harder to find a good job than I thought it was going to be. So far I have applied at 4 places and attempted to apply at another 2 but they weren't hiring...I have yet to recieve any feedback from the 4 places I have applied and I dont know whether I should call them and ask if they have reviewd my aplication or not? Me and dylon were planning on getting a job together but he seems unconcerned about the whole deal so I dont know. I am really kinda getting bored of having nothing to do all day as well. As much as I hate to admit it, it is not so much fun as it is boring to not have a job lol. Maybe if my other friends didn't have jobs to and I didn't have bills to pay then of course it would be grand. I have been hanging out with Hannah a bit and that has been great. I have decided shes completely awesome and even though she says shes boring she really isn't. She also is really ticklish....and faintly smells of chlorine but I like it :)

Anyways thats about it for now I guess, goodbye bloggy